I passed out last night
as I was walking around the neighborhood smoking my cigarettes while overwhelmed with such feelings of unsureness and macabre memories
the stars stared as I began to slightly slow down my pace and quickly fell to my knees in the middle of the road
unable to breathe
or even process what just happened
I wanted to beat myself up more
but I told myself no,that
I should not feel
I cannot feel
my fingers were filled with jolts of tingling pain
as I just laid in the road trying to
get up and go home
to a home where I'm not welcome
nor want to be
what a terrible way to die
