Broooooo!!!!!! Wtf did i jus do. Yeah i've hurt people. And now i've hurt the wrong person. Maybe if i just stop worrying about wat other people say and worry about her more then things will go good. The night she left the was like a nightmare i never meant to hurt her it was jus that im to scared of what other people feel nd think about me dating a stud nd then we finna be sisters. Its been 2 weeks and she still isn't answering any of my calls i really feel bad for what i did like she didnt deserve that. Then when i seen her wrist and all the blood i felt like shit. I've laying in bed all day every day, dont go out no more and haven't fucked anybody in a while thats how bad i feel. My homie Korei not even answering her phone either like i really messed up. I have to do something to get Kodie back idgaf anymore she is the one i need. Maybe dating a stud won't be so bad we both women so maybe a change is wat need.
Calling Kodie........
Kodie: Umm wtf do you want
Jass: Look Kodie im sorry please can we talk please
Kodie: look Jass im busy so dont call me no more ok
Jass: Kodie look i fucked up ok im sorry please let me explain nd after if you still don't want to talk to me then you dont have to please kodie
Kodie: Ight bro im on my way noe gtf off my line yo
End of Convo
Damn this shit finna be weird asf but i don't care i need her to be with me. She changed my mind set nd now that i think about it dating a stud shouldn't be so bad.
I went to go clean up the house since i have been moping around the house for the past 2 weeks. After i was done i went and took a shower. About 35 minutes later i got out and ran to my closet. I picked out a simple but sexy ass outfit.
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^^Jass outfit^^
After getting dressed i looked in my mirror and took a few pics for the gram then heard the door open. I put on my chain, rolex, and my gold studs and to finish off i put on some polo cologne and went down stairs.
"Umm hey Kodie" i said. She then looked up nd was about to leave. " Look Kodie i fucked ok. im sorry i never meant to hurt you im jus scared about how other people will think about two studs dating. I never dated a stud before and im sorry i made you feel like shit. Its just i never thought a stud could make me feel the way you do like with i first seen you i felt something that i've never felt before but it was good feeling and i hate myself for pushing you away. That night you left I did nothing but sat around thinking about you nd how selfish i am. Kodie please let me make it up to you today at 7:30 please". After i said everything i knew i loved her but its to soon so im jus gonna do something special for her. " Jass i dont knoe if i can let this happen to me again. i promised my mom that i would find someone to make me happy nd that i will never cut myself again but looks like i broke that promise. I never expressed my feelings to no one but you nd you hurt me honestly idgaf about us becoming sisters all i wanted was to be with you but yet just like all my other ex's your to fucking selfish to unberstand that it doesn't mater wat other people say. I will never hurt you but yet you seem to hurt me so please will you do the a favor nd never contact me again please." she said. " Look Kodie just let me take you out on a date and i will show you that i dont care anymore please im sorry" i said. " UGHHH ok but if you think about doing anything stupid i will kill you my damn self ok and come gt me at 8 i have something to do ok bye". And with that she left. I knew exactly wat i was gonna do for her so i ended up calling my one and only brother that no one knows about.
Convo..
SexyJass: Ayo bro i need yo help please
DumbassIce: Yo wassup sis wats wrong
SexyJass: Bro i need help. So you how i told you about moms new boyfriend and his daughter, well his daughter likes me nd when she told me how she felt i hit her with that i dont do stud4stud relationships and how that is just down right nasty. Then after i said wat said she ran to the bathroom nd was in there for almost an hour. Luckly Korei was over here to talk to her nd come to find out her nd korei are bestfranns.
DumbassIce: Yo sis wat did i tell you before i left. You done fucked up real bad now nd im am tired of yo selfish ass hurting people who really care about you. look sis i love you but you have to change man.
SexyJass: ik thats why i called you i need help putting this date together. I want to take her somewhere special
DumbassIce: ight im omw see you in 2 hours love you sis
