want you to make me feel
like im the only girl in the world
like im the only one that you'll ever love
like im the only one who knows your heart
only girl in the world
Chapter One
I was walking home from youth group in the dark, feeling depressed and lonely. That wasn't such a big deal, i normally felt this way. Being targeted by demons was my daily norm, and fuck did it get me down. Every second of the day i felt alone and scared. Hurt and confused. Because i had been targeted by them for so long, i had no sense of self or self esteem. I was essentially a human shell - i knew this and i felt real bad about it. People may want to die, but do they really want to live with a broken spirit? I thought back over my life. The demonic began when i was fifteen - i am now seventeen, and have lost the ability to see through their lies and manipulation. Their false love became my only source of love, as i withdrew myself from everyone. I needed them, and they... They needed me. To feed on. I was their prey.
Sighing, i put my headphones on my head and continued the long walk home. I could already feel a demonic presence with me, and that made me scared. No demons ever walked with me outside the house.
watching me
wanting me
i can feel you pull me down
fearing you
loving you...
The pure and strong voice of Amy Lee soothed my nerves, making me feel calm.
"Isabella" Hissed a familiar voice. My heart froze. No... There was a demon on my left hand side. I shivered as i felt his lips graze my neck. I knew who he was...
"Raphael" I breathed. I didn't feel any fear. On the contrary i felt numb. Broken. I couldn't see him but i knew his velvety voice too well. Raphael smiled against my neck - i could feel as his sharp incisors slice into my skin.
"Raph!" I cried in horror. Slapping a hand to my neck i withdrew it to see tiny flecks of blood.
"What- why-" I couldn't believe this. "That's illegal!" I felt tears of anger and helplessness fall down my face. It was bad enough that he fed on me, but in public? I felt humiliated, dehumanised. I knew i was an object to him, but i still hadn't admited it to myself.
"Why does this anger you?" Raphael materialised beside me into his usual form - a tall sexy guy with cropped blond hair. He stared at me through his black eyes. "You let me this far into your life, and in turn i have taken certain liberties."
"You selfish monster!" I lost it, right there on the side of the road. Everyone in their cars probably thought i was a lunatic - i didn't give a fuck. "I never said that you could feed on me when i wasn't at home
!" I felt deranged - i was hanging by a thread, i really didn't need this right now.
Raphaels black eyes flashed. "You dare insult me."
Rage was radiating from every part of him. Strong and overwhelming it possessed every crevace of my soul, making me want to run as far from Him as I could. But i didn't leave. I was a 'stubborn bitch' who always took a stand for what she believed in.
So i guess i felt embarrassed when i started shaking slightly. It was getting darker and colder by the minute, dont blame me. I wrapped my arms around myself.
"So what if i insulted you. You disrespected me, you crossed the line!"
"I am not arguing with you, petty human." Raphael said. He crossed the small space between us in one stride. He was fading out, i saw, becoming more blurred at the edges like a remembered dream.
"Just you wait til you get home." He snarled.
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Is anyone reading? This is not as good as i'd like, its meant to be more dark and sexy.
