Who's the Crazy Person Now? (A Random Story with Sonic and friends)

Carry On by Rainbow Rowell

It's the first time I wasted my money for a completely thick book... AND I WAS SHOCKED REALIZING THAT I ENDURED READING 522 pages. It took me one week (or maybe even less because I've never brought it at school because I didn't want to be disturbed nor brag how amazing it is). I'm not a bookworm because I've never actually liked books as much as my mom did (she had a collection but in her story, she said she left it all back in Saudi where she worked there). I've read several works in wattpad but it never really occur to me that it was thick because looking at 20 chapters for me isn't enough (and besides, it's not like a hard copied book where you can touch the texture of every page and it looked like the words per chapter didn't even pass 1000 words). I haven't told my friends about this (I don't want them to know it, besides, I keep on feeling like a cast away so I don't know if I can call them friends or people that company me every lunch and recess because I looked lonely). Finishing the book was like an achievement to me but at the same time I wished that I was slow in reading so that I didn't finish it early. I'd only post this to share what I feel because I didn't open my accounts because I'm busy with it and/or because I don't know how to express this joy within me to the people accompanying me during break times at school (I feel sorry for saying this but sometimes I do feel like I'm just following them like a dog tied up in a chain). Anyway, I'd like to tell the world how amazing the story is but I'm afraid that people will just slap me for making them buy a novel that isn't everyone's comfort zone (I AM fujoshi in every way). It's just that... I don't know what to feel right now anymore, I've been confused because of the friendship problems our squad has been experiencing lately (the latter I was talking about) and the past scenario where I didn't get to meet my REAL squad because my mom can't split herself in to two (yeah, it's still a big deal, wonder why). I've been crying for simple things then laugh at how stupid I am to cry for it. I don't know what to feel anymore. I hide myself as a playful, active, noisy and annoying person at school and busy myself in reading books and mangas at home. I just wanted you guys to know my condition and if ever someone endured reading this then thanks for all the feels. I'm tired and lazy lately (haven't done my homework with effort sometimes), if only someone would give me a hug saying to me that everything will be alright, that I can past through this and I'll be alive again.... Good night (I'm sleepy but I just has to type this).