I closed my phone after checking out some twitter updates. It will only be a week before their 2nd album comeback and I’m so excited. I reached for my bangtan calendar from my study table and a red marker and encircled october 10.
“bts comeback!!!” I noted, the last exclamation point unconciously written near J-hope’s face on my calendar.
I stared at his beautiful, smiling face and I smiled. He may have his hair color changed from time to time or his clothes from dark to elegant but there is just no mistaking that heart shaped lips that I will recognize anytime, anywhere. Those tender lips to whom I shared my first kiss with.
Without realizing, a single streak of tear escaped my eyes, followed by another and now they’re flowing off my eyes like river. I can’t help it, I miss him so much it hurts. All memories with him played in my head like a movie, and his smiling face on the calendar didn’t stop the memories from coming.
“stop smiling hobi-yah” I said while smiling. Yes, I’m smiling while crying in front of my calendar and it feels so crazy.
“everything is for the best” I told my hobi calendar but that to me sounded like I’m convincing myself.
His smiling face is becoming more painful to look at now so I placed it back to where it belongs.
It has been 3 years since the day i left you. Please trust that your dream is my dream as well and I wanted you to reach them even if it means that I can no longer be with you. That I am no longer a part of the future that you’re making. I just want you to shine to the world the way you shined on mine.
I love you. Please keep that in mind.
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Memories Of Hope ( BTS Jhope Fan fiction) On Going
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