Said I love you but I lied

Chapter 1

Kissy's POV

I've been getting ready for the past two hours and I never really understood what the fuss is all about. Sure, it's my dad's 50th birthday party which means it isn't mine. But being here with a designer, a hairdresser and a make-up artist makes me feel otherwise. Well, maybe it's because I haven't really been seen on any social events for the last ten years.

Being back in my hometown brings back a lot of memories that I've to forget in the last ten years. I knew I've hurt a lot of people when I left and maybe hurt some people now that I'm back, but this decision was not mine to make. I owe my parents this. They want me here so here is where I'll be. No matter how scared I am to see HIM again.

The last ten years. I miss him. So much that I can't even express it. I have suppressed my emotional side because this is how I feel I can cope being without him. He was my best friend, my first crush, my first love, my first kiss. Everything. I never really got to know how I managed to leave him, but all I know is that it was all for him. I wanted a normal life for him. I wanted him to be happy. Never worried about what tomorrow might bring. Never scared that he might lose something he cares so much about. I guess I made the right decision because from what I heard from my family and all that I've read in the papers, he has lived his life well. At least one of us did.

I've been thinking about this for the past few hours when I heard my mom call me.

"Kissy, are you ready? You look so beautiful honey!" she exclaimed. She was wearing a gold long off-shoulder gown with her long brown hair upped and styled. She looked regal, as always.

"I've been ready since this morning mom" I said while laughing at her expression showing her disapproval but if you know her very well, you'll see the glimmer of laughter in her eyes. She put her hands on my shoulders and turned me around so I was facing the mirror. I saw the same girl everyday, the girl I left in this same house ten years ago. Yes, I've grown up now. From being the chubby and bubbly girl I was when I was fifteen, I am now this skinny woman of twenty-five. An author, a travel enthusiast and an emotionless doll who only does as what my parents tell me to. They aren't strict or dictatorial but I do everything that will make my family happy. It makes me feel like I'm paying back all the years I stole from their lives.

"Your dad and I missed you this past two years. We thought you'll just go around the world and never come back to us." My mom said referring to my decision the travel the whole world for the last two years with my brother, Jake.

"Of course I will never miss dad's birthday. We always are together for each of our birthdays. Aren't we?" I said remembering the past two years wherein my parents will go to wherever in the world my brother and I are when our birthdays come up.

If there's anything wonderful that came out good from all the trials I brought upon my family for the last ten years, this was it. We got so close that it was unbelievable. I don't know anybody whose family are closer than ours even when we are not together.

"I'm glad honey. Now, we need to come down to the garden and meet the guests. Jake and your dad will be wondering where we are", mom said.

We went down to the garden together snd enjoyed walking while talking about random things. My family owns a successful company and are considered one of the wealthiest in the state . My dad's birthday party will surely be attended by the richest people in our town which makes me worried.

I know he might come and that scares me. After I left ten years ago, we never talked. We were so young, I thought I'll get over him but I never did. I remember that day when I was leaving ten years ago. 

Our parents are the best of friends since we were kids so we practically grew up together. He is an only child so he was always in our house when our parents are working. He even has his own room which was beside Jake's and I's room. Jake and he are like siblings and I'm like their little princess. My thoughts were cut off when Jake came near me and pinched my cheeks.

"Kissy, you're make-up's so thick I can't feel you're skin!!!" he starts laughing like crazy.

"Yeah yeah! As thick the icing I will put in your face later when I get a hold of the cake" I answered.

"We'll see what you can do clums.." and he smirked the most devilish smirk there ever was.

"I know how fast you run... and how easy you fall after five seconds!!!!" and he started laughing again.

"Moron!" I said while it tried kicking his shin but the devil just sidestepped me and avoided my attack.

"Nice move lil sis" he said then he turned serious. "by the way, dad invited the Corbins and so he might come" he was looking at me like he was worried I'm going to faint.

"Really? That's great" I said nonchallantly. I knew he saw through me but didn't say anything and I am grateful for that. I don't think I can explain the combination of feelings that go through me when I think about seeing HIM again.

Jake and I roamed around while greeting guests who were all surprised to see me all grown up. 

After around half an hour of joking around, our parents called us. I was laughing about something Jake said when I lifted my head and saw him looking at me. His eyes didn't betray anything he was thinking which only made me curious.

I was stunned and I know I look pale and disoriented because Jake suddenly clutched my hand which was on his arm hard and stood in front of me to hide my view of him. He didn't talk. He knows how hard it is for me.

It all suddenly came back to me.