Beautiful Mess | jb

Chapter 17 - London Eye

"Where are we going?" I asked as we sat in the car.

"It's a surprise." Justin smiled at me. My had was in his and they both rested on my thigh.

"Okay." I smiled at him. God, I hate surprises. No actually I don't. I just hate the part of knowing there is a surprise and waiting for it. Being surprised is awesome, but I hate not knowing what's going on. Justin didn't know that though, and it would only be a couple of minutes until I'd find out so I didn't say anything.

I thought back to mama's call. Mentally scolding her for doing that to me and telling him. She had absolutely no right and also I'm a big girl and she knows that. I've been taking my meds without anyone making sure I do so for years. What was all the fuss about? Where did this come from all of a sudden? Nevertheless, I couldn't change the fact that Justin now knew and I would need to tell him. I hated myself for keeping things from him. Why was this so damn hard?

"We're here." Justin interrupted my train of thoughts. I quickly dragged my mind back to reality and grabbed my purse as he already got out of the car. I followed him and frowned at the view in front of me. We were at the river Thames, in the heart of the city. I had been here on my first day after my little shopping trip.

"Come on." Justin dragged me with him by my jacket.

"Where are we going?" I wondered catching up with him.

"Up there." He pointed at the huge Ferris wheel that was London eye. A smile spread on my lips. I had been to London a couple times but never managed to go there as much as I'd always wanted to.

"Nice." I beamed at Justin. "Let's go." I told him excited as I watched his face. He seemed pleased at the fact that I liked it.

We walked a couple of steps to the entrance and to my surprise there was no queue. Though it was a weekday I expected a lot of tourists to be there. Right away we got in one of the booths. Mikey waited for us down at the exit to give us some privacy as there were no people around we were safe on our own. Justin and I sat down next to each other and he put his arm around my shoulders. I didn't fight it as nobody could see us. Wow, us two alone in public that's a first.

"This is so cool. I've always wanted to go on this thing." I beamed at him excited.

"Glad you like it." He smiled down at me.

As we got up higher and higher we both started pointing at things in the distance and enjoyed the view. I had so much fun.

"Oh god, this is so high!" I said shutting my eyes for a split second chuckling.

"Don't tell me you're afraid of heights." Justin sounded a little concerned.

"Only a little bit. I am fine with looking in the distance but I wouldn't wanna loot straight down." I chuckled leaning in to him smiling at him. Justin didn't seem convinced though.

"I feel safe with you." I told him smirking and he flashed me his million dollar smile. He pulled me close for a kiss. I hesitated briefly checking out the booths next to ours for cameras.

"There's no one here." Justin answered my unspoken question. I frowned at him. How could he be so sure? Oh no!

"Don't tell me you-" I cut myself off as my eyes went wide. Fuck! He rented out the whole thing. That's why nobody was around.

"We couldn't be sitting here like that if I didn't. It's fine." I wasn't convinced. "Look, it's the only way for me to do things like that. I do it all the time. It's fine." I raised my eyebrows and smirked at him shaking my head lightly. I was lost for words. "Now give me a kiss." I didn't hesitate this time.