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Chapter One

What I've decided she looks like.

Dan Howell's DMs on Twitter had practically become 21 year old Luci Rose's diary for the past months. She had recently moved out of her home in Brighton and into a small flat in London by herself. Things were a lot more difficult than what she thought they would. A lot of things began to go wrong. Of course she would have told her friends, but they of course happened to be in uni in the United States. Her three friends had all gone to universities in New Mexico and New York. And now she was there. Alone. Borderline depressed because of the death of her parents and with no high hopes for anything.

There was only one good thing happening in her life in that moment. It being Danisnotonfire. He was her favourite YouTuber of all time. He was funny, kind, and made her smile only thinking about his adorable face.

She wasn't in the best place she had to admit.  It wasn't all the time, but sometimes she just felt a wave of sadness rush over her. Sometimes she just broke down and began to cry because she felt so alone, but she did have one person she could text. Yes, it was a DM on Twitter and yes he was a celebrity, but somehow she felt more calm, after sending that DM. As established before, it was practically her diary.

Luci took a look around her flat and sighed. She was disappointed. All she saw was an empty canvas which she had no hope in. She didn't believe it would turn into a masterpiece. It was just a blank, boring, old canvas.

"At least I've got a job... things could be worse.."

Yes, she did have a job. Technically two. She was a small YouTuber, but that wasn't a job according to most. However she was a barista at a Starbucks nearby. Of course she was.. well, she had tried being a waitress, but she was terribly clumsy. So, waitressing was definitely out of the question. Those were the only two jobs she wasn't too awkward to do. Then there was YouTube... she really only used it because she had a dream one day she would become a famous YouTuber..but if you don't believe in yourself who else is going to? Mum and dad... that's it. And for her not even that. She and her mum didn't get along too well.

Luci took a seat on one of the her only pieces of furniture and rested her legs on one of the boxes. Which was a purple lilac blow-up chair. However she did take care of it. Perhaps, too much. The girl slid her phone out of her pocket and unlocked it, smiling widely as a Twitter notification popped up. Dan had tweeted.

"feeling violated by @AmazingPhil brb ppl"

She liked and retweeted it. Like, mentioned before Dan Howell always knew how to make her smile. She went to the homepage and to the only person she ever sent private messages to.

"Mixed feelings... depression is still a struggle, but I'm trying to fight it because depression and moving out aren't a good mix. Going to my first real job tomorrow and hoping I'll do good I've got no chance if I lose that job. YouTube isn't a real job. I've got barely one thousand subscribers, that isn't enough at all to keep me alive. Anyway, I've got some instant noodles to eat and some of your YouTube videos to re-watch😅 Bye."

Luci pressed "send" and lifted herself up. She had to set up her blow-up bed and with her will to do things and her lungs she would finish by midnight or even later. The flat didn't have wifi yet and her 4G wasn't working well so the message wasn't sent yet.

Message sent
7:12PM

Message seen
7:16PM