Beautiful Scars

Chapter 1; A cut is only a cut if you make it

"Grif, time for school. I think ur not sleeping so so get dressed"  my mom screamed from the downstairs ' kitchen

I jumped off the small couch in my room toward the bathroom for a razor.I grabbed and made two big cuts, then washed it and put a badage on it.i washed my face and brushed my teeth. I then got into my black knee ripped jeans, a black crop top, a black leather jacket, and  a black choker. I grabbed my bag and a elastic for my black strait hair. I ran downstairs to find my mom and my step dad making out on a dining room chair. I see alot of that but it doesn't affect me cause I do it with my boyfriend, Blake.

I grab a banana and hear a car honk. I know who it is so I put the banana down and run to the door.

"Bye mom, bye Cev."

"Bye" they both say while making out.

I ran to Blake's Range Rover and jumped in.

"Hey babe, how is the most sexiest girl I ever seen doin?"

"I'm fine and how bout u, my king" I say as pecking his lips and backing up back in my seat to feel a arm wrap around my waist and pull me closer to his lips. I know what he wanted, he wanted to have sex in his car. But I didn't want to risk my arm bleeding and him finding out I cut again. I mean he knows that I use to cut, cause come on how hard is it to not notice scars on another's wrist  while making love.

I pulled back from our deep kiss and fixed my now meesy hair he was playing with while making out with me.

"Babe, but I want u!."he saids in a whiny vioce almost like a 5 year old.

"We have to go to school!." I say in almost the same tone as his.

He then grunts and starts the car. School here we come.

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Yay school. We are here. I jump out of the car to find Blake at the back of the car waiting for me without a shirt on. He knows very well that that is my weekness. I stare at his toned abbs and his muscles that are clearly on his arms. He catches me staring and grabs my waist pulling me closer while making me lean my back on the car, he kisses my neck three times as I moan and then he looks at me.

"Please, babe" he says clearly wanting me as much as I want him right now.

"As much as I want to be under the covers with you right now we have school and since it's the first day of school we can't be late so come on" I say while handing him a white t shirt and pulling him toward the school.

As soon as we got there. Blair, Blake's obsessed ex walks toward us with two other girls behind her.

"Hi Blakey, I see your still keeping trash with you as always. When your done come over my house then we can finish what we were doing yesterday night." She said while smiling at me. I turn to face Blake who has a sorry face on. I turn around and walk fast away from him cause I was about to slap that sorry look off his sexy ass face.

"Grif, wait!"I hear shouting while running after me, he finally reached me and put him hands on my waist to stop me. I tried pulling away but he pulled me into him. I didn't look up at him but he forced his fingers to my chin and pulled my face to look at him.

"Grif, I'm sorry. I was at Ryan's party and I got drunk. I was about to get out of the party to come to your house but then Blair just pulled me in a room and started to kiss me and....we had sex-"

I look at him with a pissed off, sad, and teary face. Then just pull his grip off of me and run into the girls' bathroom where I sat on the toilet and toke out my razor from my purse. I slid it into my arm making a long trail of blood where my razor was. I was crying and hurting.

When I was done I got up and went over to the sink and washed away the blood as I heard Blake's from behide me. He just came into the girls' bathroom. He saw my arm and then looked at me with a  tear rolling down his face.

"Oh babe."he finally said with another tear on his cheek. I hate when he cries, it hurts me.

"I'm so so so sorry."he saids as pulling me into a hug and kisses every inch of my face. He looks down at me.

"When did u start babe."

"I'm never r..really s..stopped" I say as a tear rolled down his face again. I wip it away and he squeezes me into his hug where I smell his colon and minty breathe.

"I love you and will always will. Yesterday was a mistake. The only reason me and Blair stopped is because I moaned your name instead of her's. Then she got pissed and I left noticing it was her and not you."

"I love you too Blake." I say as pecking his lips and making in turn into a make out session but then before any thing happened the bell rang and I had to get going. Me and Blake had every class but one together.So we walked over to our first class with his hand on my waist from behind. He kissed the top of my head every time I toke a step. I relized right now that I'm not mad at this Player cause he wasn't a player and if he was he would have to play my game not his own.