Hey Addie,
My head won't stop hurting. It's been worse but I haven't had a headache in a while and I don't know, I thought they stopped. A few times I forgot where I was for a second....it's pretty bad. Sometimes I think that my life consists before the crash and after the crash. Its almost like there were two people in the same body at different times. I just feel this disconnection between me now and me before and sometimes I'm almost like an intruder. I don't know how to explain it.
Today I went to see you. You were still under the ground, asleep for eternity. It felt quite peaceful actually. Imagine if someone was asleep for eternity; that would be a very long sleep. I started to think about what would happen if I died...don't worry I'm not planning on doing anything I was just thinking.
I kind of want to be cremated and I want my ashes in a bottle. That bottle will go in the ocean. It's a nice ending to someone's life. And I don't want people to be sad that I died. I want them to have a big party with lots of food and think of all the great memories they had with me. I want it to be a nice day, not a sad day. I want people to play my favourite songs and dance. No one should be sad.
Endings shouldn't be sad, because there are always new beginnings.
Yours,
Christopher
