One-Sided Love (Poetry)

You're now a figure of my past.

The past which I no longer live in.

To remove and avoid the pain.

That you caused for a countless time.

You were my idol, my star, my inspiration,

Yet for you I was just a person, a person standing in your way towards your decisions

I was mostly making a fool of myself just so you can see

That I, too, can be a girl you wanted to love and hold.

You were stubborn and snob,

But you were also a guy who was a talent.

A talent in feeling the beat of music.

And the talent to make me smile without knowing.

But as of now. You were no longer free

Tied in a relationship, as happy as can be.

I will be the one to sacrifice, my happiness for yours.

Cause seeing you smile, brings back the color to my life.

On the 28th of September, you cared, just once.

A rainy afternoon, and was freezing outside.

I was alone, sitting and you were there cheering.

You were so close yet so far.

Seemed to me you were in another world.

And I was trapped outside of it.

When you asked how was I

I snapped and realized one thing-

I was just merely a friend to you;

Maybe a sister even.

And it hurts cause I know

That it's all that we'll ever be.

I was dumb, stupid and also a freak,

To dream that I may be yours and you will be mine.

But that was so far away, for you-

Only got eyes for those pretty and interesting ones

I was just merely a bypasser when I walk past you.

But when you're the one to walk,

I almost blush and want to bow down

You were like a prince and I was a peasant.

But a prince falling in love with a peasant,

Only happened in fairytales.

And know was the time to stop tricking myself

And teach myself that fairy tales don't exist.

By all means in loving you,

I sacrificed my strong façade,

To be all girly and started fixing myself more.

It was a coincidence when I saw you on the 10th of August.

At first I was looking at you,

Admiring your tall yet limp figure.

But then it turned into liking, then possession,

Then became obsession, and then I realized I loved you.

But you never took a glance.

Others say you were looking at me,

But who am I to kid,

I wasn't one to catch your attention.

But From this day on, I promise to be strong

Not only to me but also to you.

I loved you since the held event months ago.

And it will end in this last event this year will be holding.

For now I grant you peace,

But I will come back for vengeance.

Not to hurt you in the way you hurt me,

But to prove you that you made the wrong choice.

The choice of leaving me hanging like a branch on a tree,

With no one to save for it was high as can be.

This tears as of now, will serve as a mark

A mark that I loved you with all my heart.

Again I am broken and for no one to fix.

But only for you and nobody else.

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Hey! Guys! sorry if I'm not updating frequently but I'm experiencing difficulties. I have the stories planned but this problem is heartbreak. Such one Sided love. I understand I'm not pretty and nowhere near it but they all care for the face. But now I am experiencing this kind of love. I hate it. He has this effect on me that makes me drawn to him. I just want to end it all. I appreciate your time in reading this. :) sorry for wrong grammars or typos. It's just that my eyes are covered with tears that keep on coming down. sorry for ranting and goodnight lovelies. xx