We closed the store, we are going to our houses. And Ian is talking too much i mean you can't even imagine this. But this time i just pretended i wasn't listening, what he didn't know was that i absorbed every word that escaped his lips. I'm not a fag but damn he's so hot, sometimes i just think about his lips and how soft they are. What the fuck? Oh finally! This is his house and now he is going inside of his house. Yes, he's gone thank god! I don't know why but i kept looking at his house even after he's gone. Then i realized that. Whatever i just wanna go home and try not to think about him. After a couple of weeks i accepted my feelings. I mean i might be gay, somehow. But why Ian?
The next morning we opened the store. There wasn't ant customers because it was still early. And when he sat next to me i felt things, things that i don't even know i have. I'm probably gay, yeah. I don't think there is nothing with that but i always hated Ian. Actually if i would've looked at his face for once and if i would've saw those little freckles i wouldn't hate him. I know it's the second minute i admit that i like Ian but i wanna show him how he made me feel. And then Ian smiled i don't know why but he did. I refuse to say to say i want to kiss him just because of i want to do more than just that. When did i became so gay? After a several minutes he asked me if i wanna go out after the closing. I said yes without any second thoughts. He must've notice. He must've notice that i like him. Then i realize that he is straight. I don't know but he must be straight. Who knows maybe he has a girlfriend. I don't know if it's the right thing to ask him, even if it's true i can't ask him. I'm afraid of the answer. Holy fuck. I've never thought i would be in this situation ever. He's doing something to me and i can't even resist.
I know it's super short but i had exams this whole month so it was really hard to write for me. I'm so sorry and i will fix this, i promise. I hope you guys enjoy this chapter. Love you ❤️
