Addie,
I want to scream. My head hasn't stopped hurting. I've reached the point where I can't think anymore. So I went where you were last seen alive.
There was no one on the bridge and there weren't any sounds besides the waves underneath. It was a very clear night and I could see the stars. For once my headache eased. I couldn't believe you left the earth on that same spot a few months before...it just didn't seem right.
I keep wondering what you were thinking in those last moments. Were you saying goodbye? Were you happy that you could finally leave? Or were you sad? Could you feel anything in those last minutes? What was the last thing that ran trough your mind before you hit the water?
I don't think the river remembers you. Or maybe it does, but just too many people have said their goodbyes here it doesn't really matter anymore. After all it's a river and after a while the ocean will clean it and it'll never remember anything happened. Maybe the fish still remember.....
I got lost in the sound of the water after a while. It's a lovely sound.
I think that's the best place for someone to say goodbye. I hope I die a pretty death someday.
Yours,
Christopher
