It's 12:05am, it's quite very quite, there is an emptiness inside of me, like if I am dead inside, and this darkness and silence is just making worse! My body is telling to cry and just feel sorry for myself, it keeps repeating to me that everything I touch dies, I am with family but it feels like they aren't family, they feel so far away. As I am writing my heart's racing vs itself, you hear the cold breeze and my skin hair start to point up, and then you ask my self "what I am doing here?" "Who I am?" " Why I am so sad and so lonely?" And tears come to my eyes and I realize I am still loving you! I don't know who is "you" but I am missing you!
A melody comes to my head it's "moonlight" by Beethoven, it very sad sounding! He too was a very emotional person and I think I know what he felt! The sound of the clock soo clearly can be hear when it's quiet .
This nights are very long
I can't sleep
The only thing the keeps me up is the night stars!
Every night I look up into the stars, they look so beautiful!
And I know that you are maybe looking at them too and it's the same moon and the same stars and maybe you are thinking of me, like I am thinking of you.
