One morning I woke up and went to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and I saw tears in my eyes falling to my cheek. This has been happening to me ever sence I've liked this boy.
He is like a brother to me. I tried so hard to keep my feels to myself. I did in the 7th grade but then in 8th grade. He found out some how. Ever sence he found out, it hasn't been the same with me and him. We didn't hang out as much. I want to go back to the way it was!
The next morning, my phone rang it said his name on it with a <3 He wanted to wake me up. Well that helpedxD. I was so happy to talk to him as normal. So we started playing xbox together. We were playing Halo 3xD.
After that he wanted to talk on the phone. So we are talking and he asked "Do you love me" I thought he ment as a friend so I say yes of corse. (eather way I still did) He asked me if I want to be his girlfriend, I stood quiet for a while and I say "yes!" and he said ')"what if I was joking?"
So I hung up he kelp calling and calling so I answered and he says "Sorry I just want to know what you would say!" then I said I have to go and hung up. I was hurt. Cause that ment he doesnt even like me:(
The next day
"School"
"Great another day of depression" I say. There was really no way to make me happy but him. Well 4th period is the only class I have with him. So he sat next to me cause we had a sub. And so instead of reading we are passing notes and its say hi(:. I'm just like oky then. so I say hi back he asks if he can go over my house. haha so he did.
We went to the library first cause my mom need to do something. It took a long time so we got bored and then he takes my phone and starts running away. so I start chasing him. I couldn't find him. I don't know where he went. so he's calling my name and I see him on one of the couches in the library. I try to get my phone back and he's pinching my cheek as he always does, puts his hand on my chin and kisses me. I was surpised so I still try to get my phone and he gives it back.
While we got to my house. it got boring so I took him home:/
Thursday school:
We really didn't talk about the kiss but I asked him "What was that kiss about." he didn't answer me. So after school he goes on the bus I go to soccer practice at 3:45 so he's texting me and asks "Do you still wanna know why I kissed you?" "YES!!!" I said He texts "It was to make up what I did wrong.'' I asked him " what did you do wrong?"
"Remember when I asked you to be my girlfriend and I was kidding" he texted.
I smile and asked "so what are you saying"
"That your my girlfriend" he said
I got so happy a text came said "I think" ughhhh right after I was so happy. So then I say "look I really want you to be my boyfriend but if you need to think about its okay" he didn't text back I got scared so scared that my heart was racing. Tears were gonna fall down my cheek.
Friday Field trip to peter piper:
Yay its a little trip to peter piperxD I was gonna go with a couple of friends we started having fun, running around, playing games, eatting pizza. Then guess who walks in the building. (The boy I liked) I was so happy but at the same time I was scared still. Everytime I see him my heart started racing I get nervese when I'm with him. I try so hard to not make it awkward. But then again some how i do:/ ,
At the end of peter piper its was 6:00am, the sun was rising, Then I had this feeling in my stomach I've never had in my life. I felt........ knots....... in my stomach. I asked myself "what is this feeling?" "is it normal?"
