I may look like that I live life to the fullest but in reality I don't. No matter how much I want to exist and be apart of the modern day it will forever be out of my reach. I live each day observing life as it travels in motion however I will remain still and in the middle of life and nothing. I am the one who has to move out of existence whilst others embrace the life that could of been mine but I don't really care for existing. All I care about is that the others around have a happy life. It doesn't matter what happens to me as long as they live life I don't care if I don't exist. What's the point in existing now when you were not supposed to. Those special people I observe will leave me I know that but the times when I watch their lives live it feels me with a type of happiness I'm sure other people could never feel. Happiness for others and not for yourself.
Don't worry about me. I'm fine with not truest existing in this world. I do feel emotions like anger, happiness, sadness and guilt. That's probably the reason it took me so long to realise that I wasn't truly living. I feel empty inside that I can't exist like the rest but I think that's how life wanted it. One person out of the rest to look at people from the shadows. Look but never act upon the persons life or future. Why am I telling you this well it's because I enjoy others living so go out and live life to best of your ability I won't tell you again. Fill this empty soul with some kind of happiness even though I'm destined to forever look upon you in the shadows and only look not interact. So live on and keep me entertained.
This is the only part that will come out there is not much to tell you but I am alone and forever force to only observe. That's the truth of the matter. It is all true non of what I say is a lie in my own eyes.
