Letters (A Dark Louis Tomlinson Fanfic)

Chapter 59

*Louis' PoV*

I towed her inside by the arm, the desperate ache to feel her lips on mine again increasing with each hurried step. The gravel under our feet crunched, the expectant atmosphere evident in the air. As soon as I shut the door, I felt the urge to pin her up against the door then and there, but battled the overwhelming urge.

Instead, I gently led her into the kitchen and sat her down on to one of the bar stools at the island. Her eyes moved around the kitchen, surveying it carefully.

"It looks much nicer now that it's not half scorched anymore," she joked, but there was no humour in her eyes, just a glimmer of still-remaining guilt. I gave a half smile, reaching over and taking ehr hand in mine, running my finger in between each knuckle.

"T, don't even think about that," I reassured her, catching her attention by brushing her hair away from her face, so she was looking me directly in the eye, "Shit happens. It just so happened that this was a rather big shit, but it doesn't matter anymore. The shit has been flushed away, okay?"

She laughed at my horrible attempt at a metaphor, but I could see it in her eyes that my words did little to sway her feelings. It was going to take a long time before she would forgive herself and let go. Well, if I had it my way, she'd be 'letting go' in a matter of minutes, but in this context, it would take a while.

I saw her drop her eyes to the floor, her gaze remaining in the same spot, and I knew that she was overthinking things and replaying the event in her head. To distract her, I stood up off my stool and closed the short distance between us, tilting her chin up so she was looking up at me from where she sat, her big, innocent eyes watching me intently. Tentatively, I leaned down, capturing her lips in a kiss that I will never forget.

Our lips remained still for a moment, enjoying the sensation of our silent consolidation. Her lips were a reminder that I could never want anything more than I wanted her. The fluttering in my stomach and lightheaded feeling assured me of that.

I moved my hand to the side of her face, sweeping the hair away from the unspoiled canvas that was her irreplaceable face. She sighed into the kiss, shoulders relaxing and hands coming to rest gently on my chest, palms flat against the thin material of my t-shirt as her lips began to slowly glide with mine. I nudged them apart cautiously, not wanting to rush things. She was fragile china and I was a wrecking ball; if I wanted to keep her safe then I needed to constantly protect her, my every move required to be gentle and carefully premeditated. I loved her so unbelievably much and I would do whatever it took for her to realise that.

Her tongue brushed off mine lightly, causing my heart to swell and my spirit to soar like doves in the wind. I had never felt anything like it, and I would never have enough. Her hands ran a trail up my chest to loop around my neck as I wrapped my arms around her waist. I broke the kiss and nuzzled her nose with mine, eyes still closed as I savoured the moment of perfection.

"I love you so much," I whispered to her, and I was surprised when my voice cracked with emotion and my eyes watered slightly, "Please don't leave me again. I promise not to give you a reason to, just please. You're like nothing I've ever known before."

A tear rolled down her cheek as she caressed my skin, fingers twirling patterns down the side of my face, by my eye and down to my jawline.

I heard muffled noises to my right and I glanced slightly to the left, spying the phone sitting on the counter-top. I reached over, pressing the End Call button, just to be safe. I turned back to Trinity and rested her forehead against mine. Her arms were placed delicately around my neck once more as her fingers played with the ends of my hair familiarly. I wrapped my arms around her waist once more, guiding her legs around mine and lifting her up as our lips met once again. I held her close to me as I exited the kitchen, scaling the stairs step-by-step, without breaking contact.

I peppered kisses along her jawline and side of her neck as she issued hushed sweet nothings into my ear. Her body fitted mine like a missing puzzle piece and I wished more than anything, in that moment, for my circuit to remain unbroken and Trinity by my side.

I shut the door easily behind me as we entered the room that we used to call ours, ambling over to the bed and laying her down softly, her hazel eyes looking to mine for reassurance. I gave her hand a soft squeeze and climbed onto the bed with her, settling over as my lips came to rest against the sensitive skin of her neck, my hand gently guiding her head to the side.

Her back lifted off of the mattress as I nipped the flesh, before allowing the pad of my tongue to absorb the sting. Quiet moans made their way out of the corner of her mouth and I squeezed her hand once again, encouraging her. I wanted to hear her more, I wanted to know that I was the only one who could make her feel this way, and I wanted to know that after making her feel so shit, time and time again, that I could at least make her feel good in this one way.

Her fingers found the edge of my t-shirt, tugging it gently and silently asking me to halt my lustful assault. I did as she wished, the material sliding over my head. I slipped my hands between her back and the mattress, lifting her back up slightly so she was pulled against me, the contact soothing my fear of abandonment and causing my love and lust for her to grow by the second.

I returned the favour she had done unto me only seconds ago, sliding the material of her t-shirt over head, leaving her black lace bra exposed. She dipped her head to the side, blushing slightly, and I found it amazing that she was still shy, even after everything we had been throught together.

"You're perfect," I whispered hoarsely in her ear, right before I captured her lips in mine again, this time using it as a distraction, pulling her jeans off as our tongues brushed against one another's in a timid exchange of love.

She did the same, only having to break the kiss and furrow her brows in concentration as my jeans got stuck around my ankles. I laughed lightly at her sudden seriousness, and she joined in as she finally managed to slip my jeans over my feet. I pulled my socks off while I was at it, sparing no time.

I sat back up straighter, taking her with me, so she was straddling my lap. This time, she took control as her lips latched onto the flesh at the edge of my shoulder. It was an area that was never paid much attention to, and lay untouched, until then, making it even more sensitive beneath her lips.

She began to rock back and forth slowly, her hips pressing down tortuously onto my boxers, making them tent almost immediately. I groaned, my head being thrown back as I got lost in the sensation. My lack of sex, in combination with the actions of her lips and hips, meant that if she didn't stop, I was going to come then and there.

To prevent it, I lay her back down, so I was on top once more, and hooked my thumbs in the edge of her underwear, pulling them down her legs slowly. She lifted her feet up, flicking them off the end of her legs and giggling as they flew across the room. I did the same with her bra, unhooking it and throwing it carelessly onto the floor.

My boxers soon followed suit, and we were both lying together with nothing separating our two bodies apart from the small space between us. I nibbled her lip softly as I reached down between us, immediately rubbing her gently. Her lis broke away from mine, unable to deal with the waves of pleasure my fingers were giving her.

"You're so wet for me," I groaned, kissing her passionately as I slipped a finger into her, pushing it in and out at a steady pace as her hips rolled with every movement made by my hand. To think that she had known nothing when I met her blew my mind. Now here she was, rolling her hips and driving me crazy every time she batted those long eyelashes at me.

I pushed a second finger in, pushing in slowly up to my knuckles, before twirling them slightly and hearing her moan loudly. I smiled, burying my head into her neck as I continued, her sounds of pleasure the only thing I needed to hear. My lips caressed her neck in gentle pecks before returning to her mouth, silencing her moans as they were released from the back of her throat.

I kissed her, giving her every ounce of passion I had, trying to show her that she was the only one I wanted, before I moved my head down her body, making a slow trail from her chest down to her bellybutton, watching her back lift off the mattress in anticipation. I paused at her navel, biting her playfully and waiting for her to instruct me further.

I looked up at her, her bottom lip taken between her teeth and eyes closed, and I groaned, unable to tease her any further. My lips made contact with where she needed me most, and she gasped, back arching and nails scratching the matress. I moved my mouth against her, watching what I could do to her within mere seconds, and resisted the overwhelming urge to use my hand on myself while giving her the pleasure I long owed to her.

My tongue circled her bunch of nerves and my name left her mouth, hands entanged in my hair as she choked out 'I love you's between gasps and shudders. Not wanting to wear her out too soon, I brought myself back up to her level, only to be pushed backwards, falling onto the bed.

She climbed in between my legs and, withotut warning, took me in her mouth, swirling her tongue viciously, causing my hips to buck up involuntarily. My unforseen action caused her to gag, and I reached down, brushing her face softly and apologising hastily, only for my hand to be swatted away and pinned down at my side as she continued to bob her head up and down, altering depths every time.

Trusting me to keep my hands where they were, she released them and used her own to pump at the base, where her mouth couldn't reach. She gazed up at me, blinking slowly while smirking. That was the shit that blew my mind and she fucking knew it. I swore under my breath, knowing that if she continued for much longer, I'd come into her mouth, and that's not what I wanted to do.

I gently pulled her back up to me, releasing me from her mouth with a 'pop'. She smiled innocently and you would never have believed that it was the same girl that had pinned me down while giving me head less than twenty seconds previously.

I reached over to the locker, grabbing a condom from my drawer and ripping it open impatiently, handing it to Trinity so she could do the honours. She took it from me immediately, placing it over the tip. Then, she did something I wasn't expecting at all. She leaned down, pushing the rest of it on with her mouth.

When she lifted her head back up, I looked at her with shocked eyes.

"Where the hell did you learn to do that?!" I breathed incredulously.

She didn't grace me with a reply, only blushing furiously, before shrugging her shoulders loosely.

I shook my head in disbelief, a smile present on my face as I lay her down, brushing her hair to the side as I positioned myself between her legs, taking in the beauty that lay beneath me. I leaned down, connecting our lips as I eased into her, absorbing her gasps and whimpers as I filled her. A groan subconsciously left the back of my throat as I lay there, buried into her. No matter how much I had thought about this feeling, trying to recreate it with my hand, nothing was as unbelievable as when I sank into her, the feeling overcoming me from head to toe.

I didn't move for a second, just allowing the both of us to take everything in, before pulling out tentatively and pushing back in just as slowly. Trinity grasped my shoulders, nails sinking into the flesh there, and whined my name as I repeated the action continously, each unrushed thrust bringing me a new realm of pleasure.

I wanted to speed up, to thrust into her mercilessly, but I forced myself to keep up the torturously steady pace, wanting nothing more than to please her with every single stroke. Our lips met in a fiery fusion as our bodies melted together, moving in sync as hips rolled against eachother.

Whispers of sweet nothings were exchanged and fingers ran over the delicate skin covering each other's bodies, desperately seeking some assurance that this euphoric was real, and not some drug-induced dream. But this was no dream, this was pure, uncaged desire; two people uniting the only way they knew how.

We may have fought about everything else, but this was the one thing we had. This was the one time that we had no words of anger towards eachother, only hushed reassurances of love and passion.

I thrust deeper, hips meeting one another's with more power each time. We fell into eachother as it continued, a mess of sweat and moans, until I could feel Trinity begin to tense beneath me. I brought my fingers in between her legs and rubbed gently, wanting to feel and hear her come undone around me. My wish was granted as one long, staggered moan was emitted before she shook, my name whisperes breathlessly as she soared with her high.

That was all I needed. I had just wanted to see her let go, and once that had happened, I was ready to let go, too. I squeezed her hips with my fingers with one last thrust and closed my eyes as I felt my muscles begin to spasm, breathing becoming heavy and laboured. She raked her fingernails down my back as I released, her name the only thing I could utter as I bucked my hips forwards.

I flopped down onto her, pulling out of her and rolling us over so she lay on top of me, as not to crush her. I was unable to support myself in that moment and the last thing I wasnted to do was smother the poor girl after all that. After all, I'd left her pretty breathless as it was, evidently. I threw the condom into the conveniently placed bin, beside the bed, and stroked her forehead as her fingers trailed over the tattoos scrawled across my chest, sleep already attempting to take over.

"What did we just do?" I heard her joke, voice laced with drowsiness.

I half-chuckled back and managed to mumble a response before sleep claimed my body.

"I don't know, but whatever the fuck it was, it was pretty damn good."

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A/N: Okay, that one's for all you horny lil' shits out there haha!
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