Youtuber life

Chapter 1

I'm Zoella and I'm a youtuber. Life is great but some people don't realise I get really scared. I have anxiety - I can barley leave my snug house. And even at my brothers premier I had to leave for a bit. It annoys me so much I hate myself for it. I don't want to be those fake people on YouTube who are always happy but I don't want my subscribers to feel let down by me. I disappoint myself so much some times. I feel alone and I can't even think about going to the comments and reading all the hate comments because I know I'll have panic attacks. I'm the luckiest girl on earth to have a boyfriend who understands me so well. I hate it that my subscribers label him though- they say oh look that's Zoe Suggs boyfriend:( it makes me sad because I know it must bother him but he's so nice and caring he says it doesn't! I love Alfie to bits!! We have a little pug together called Nala who helps me with my anxiety a lot.
Honestly I can't thank my subscribers enough because most of them support me with everything and it's a great please when I get to talk to them and meet them. I've written two books about a girl called penny who has a similar problem like me so it's easy to compare with someone else. It's nice to know that people from all around the world support me and I couldn't have asked for a better family!
I love each and everyone of you to bits!!!!

Xoxo
Zoë
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Hope you enjoyed that! It's a bit weird because it's different from what I usually do so I hope it's okay.