Butterfly ( Jimin's Short Story )

Epilogue

Bumaba ako ng sasakyan dala-dala ang isang basket ng bulaklak. Its Jimin's second death anniversary. Its been a year. Time flew so fast. Hindi naging madali para sakin ang lumipas na isang taon. Puro Jimin. Minuminuto ko siyang naiisip. Lagi ko siyang napapanaginipan. At sa bawat oras ng buhay ko ay siya ang laman ng utak ko.

Masakit pa rin dahil wala na siya. Mas gusto ko pang bumalik sa dati at mawalan ng alaala makasama ko lang siya habangbuhay. Lagi akong nagdadasal, humihiling sa Diyos na sana.. sana ibalik na niya si Jimin sakin. I know its dumb to ask for that, pero malay natin, bumalik siya. Pero hindi eh, hindi ganon ang takbo ng buhay. Tulad nga ng sabi niya, tao ako, kaluluwa siya.

Jimin is that kind of person who's smile is brighter than the sun. Nakakahawa ang saya niya. He's my source of happiness. Without him, my life is boring. He is the type of person who will sacrifice all he has just for you, even his life. Jimin is someone who will love you forever. And i feel very lucky dahil ako ang mahal niya.

But why does is it have to end? Why does our story has to end? Hindi ba pwedeng happy ending na lang yung story namin? But maybe God thought that for you to have a happy ending, someone should give up their happiness for you. Wala man kayong happy ending, pero yung taong gagawin ang lahat para sumaya ka lang, yung taong iiwan ang lahat masigurado niya lang na masaya ka, diba parang ang laking bagay na nun? Dapat ng ikasaya ng puso mo yun diba? At yun ang ginawa ni Jimin para sakin. Hindi man siya nagkaroon ng masayang wakas, pero binigyan niya naman ako ng masayang storya at mga alaala na dadalin ko habangbuhay.

Bakit kailangan niyang mawala? Bakit kailangan niya kong iwan? Those are my questions that have never been answered. Habangbuhay kong itatanong yan. But i have to move on. Meaning i should continue with my life. I should be happy without him. I should get used to this. I should show him that im happy. I should let him know that he will be forever in my heart.

Nang nasa tapat na ko ng puntod niya ay binuksan ko na ang pinto at pumasok. I light the candle that i brought and place the flowers infront of him. Its his favorite. Pinunasan ko ang sahig at umupo at sumandal sa nitso.

"Annyeonghaseyo.. Did you miss me? Im sorry ngayon lang ulit ako nakadalaw. I miss you..." Naramdaman kong nangingilid na ang luha ko pero pinigilan ko itong bumagsak sa lahat ng makakaya ko. Hindi tulad ng dati, wala na kong matatanggap na sagot mula sa kaniya.

"Its been a year since you left. But i still remember that day. Sana mawala nalang ulit yung memorya ko, because the pain wont stop. But dont worry haha, im doing fine here, i hope you too. You have been the best thing that ever happened to me. They are right, some things has to end. Gustuhin mo man o hindi, may mga bagay talaga na hindi panghabangbuhay. And i never thought that our love is included. Hindi ko naisip na kasali tayo sa mga bagay na kailangang matapos..."

"I know you're happy there. I wish i could see your smile tho. I wish we could be happy together. But now, im just looking up at the sky, wishing i could see your face, smiling at me. Why do you have to leave so soon? I guess that question can never be answered. So wait for me there, okay? We'll live happily together there in heaven. We will see each other again, and i wont leave your side again anymore. I'll stay by your side forever."

"Gusto ko lang malaman mo na miss na miss na miss na miss na kita... mag-iingat ka diyan sa taas ha, clumsy ka pa naman. Kung may pagkain man diyan, wag kang papagutom. Wag ka ding makulit, baka pinapasakit mo yung ulo ni God diyan, pasaway ka pa naman. Wag mong papabayaan yung sarili mo diyan, wala ako para alagaan ka. Pakibulong naman kay God na tulungan niya ko sa finals, i badly need help haha. I hope you're doing well there. I hope you're happy, because im happy when you're happy. Dont forget about me huh? Coz i will never, ever, forget you and your love for me."

Saranghaeyo Park Jimin, my angel, nae sarang ...

After i said that, biglang humangin ng malakas. The wind is so comforting and peaceful, because i know nandito lang siya sa paligid ko. He's watching on me. He's here. I wish i could touch him, see him. Imbes na matakot, nakaramdam ako ng loneliness at emptiness. Pero bukod doon i felt his warmth, his love...

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Soooooo that's it hahaha. Last chapter na to guys. Hope you enjoyed it. See you on my next story wihuoo, or ayaw niyo na? Hahaha, just comment your reactions or may suggestions kayo, problema sa story na to. Dont be afraid to tell me, i dont bite. And oh, please vote too, i really appreciate your effort for reading this since the beginning up to the end. kamsahamnida mwa.

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