Bad boy dan

Chapter 3

Dan's pov

I woke up nuzzled into Phil's chest, he smelt like cinnamon. I opened my eyes and looked up to see Phil awake on his phone.
"Oh morning" he said, his voice was so rough and husky, but I kind of liked it. I was just staring at him not realizing it at the time.
"Oh, uh, sorry. You kind of were hugging me in your sleep, i did t want to wake you so i left you. I hope you dont mind"
"Um ha, no that's fine, it is kind of reassuring to wake up with someone, i mean uh, oh-Uhhh......sorry" I was now blushing. Nice one Dan. I let go of him and got up.
"Haha, sometimes you can be really cute you know"
I turned to look at him, i couldn't form words, no one has ever complemented me like that before.
"You really think so?"
"Ha, of course i do silly, i wouldn't of said it if i didnt mean it" he replied.
He got up too and we went downstairs. He went to check on the laundry and I sat I the lounge room watching some TV. I flicked through the channels until I came across cartoon network, adventure time was on so I just watched that.
"Hey Daaan!"
I heard Phil call from outside.
"Yeah?!"
"Would you help me for a second please?"
I got up and went out the back wondering what he need help with. I turned the corner to see him on the floor covered in laundry.
"Hahaha, what happened?" I laughed.
"I fell over cause I couldn't see where I was going and now im stuck"
I laughed as I bent down to help him up. I helped him put all the clothes in the basket and carry them inside. After we set them down in the lounge room we got dressed, but since I didnt have any of my clothes with me i had to use phils again. He took off his pyjamas and out on some black jeans. He didnt hesitate either.
"Oh, uh haha, sorry I forgot" he poked his tongue out when he laughed.
"Ha, that's fine. Do you think I could borrow some clothes again?"
"Oh yeah sure, here" he said handing me a pile of his shirts. I picked one out that was black with blue bats on it, I put on my jeans from yesterday and just some socks since it was kind of cold.
"So what do you wanna do today?" he asked.
"Well my mum is probably wanting me to get home"
"Oh, yeah, I guess you should go if she wants you home"
"Just letting I you know, I really enjoyed last night" he continued.
"Yeah me too, maybe we could do this more often?" I gave him puppy dog eyes just as a joke but I saw his cheeks turn pink.
"Yes, you can come over anytime. Oh wait, here, put your number in so we can stay in contact"
"Oh yeah, here, yours too" I handed him my phone and put my number in his. After exchanging numbers I walked to the door and said goodbye, I quickly ran home to see if mum was home, cause if she was I was in deep shit. Thank god dad isn't home this week though, he's at some thing with his drug buddies. If mum wasnt home that went the was probably getting pissed with other men. I got to my drive way and saw no cars. Thank god. I walked up to the door and unlocked it, I went inside and went upstairs to my room. I flopped down onto my bed just thinking about Phil. Do I really like him? Could we actually be a thing? No wait, we cant. Imagine what Chris, felix, PJ and everyone else would think. I cant just throw everything out the window for some guy that I just met, I mean I have a reputation to hold. Plus what would my parents say to that, they would kill me, literally. I was snapped out of my thoughts when my phone was buzzing playing the Mario theme. I reached over beside me to see phils name on my screen, I answered of course because I didnt want to be rude.
"Hey Dan, I was checking to see if you got home okay"
Does he actually care about me? Could someone actually worry and care for me, worry about my feelings and if im okay?
"Uh, hello? Dan"
"Oh yeah sorry, im fine. My mum isn't home so I dont ha- I mean yeah, i ran home so.. I yeah..... Um"
"Okay that's good, is everything alright? You sound a little...... Worried"
"Im fine Phil"
"Sorry, i just thou- never mind"
I heard a car beeping its horn outside. I got up and looked out the window. My mum was in the car fucking some dude and hitting the horn on accident not even caring that the whole neighbourhood could hear.
"What's that beeping noise?"
"Um, its just some people outside" i told Phil because i didnt want him to know what my family is really like, no one knew not even my friends. Not that i could actually trust any of them. I mean Phil seems pretty trust worthy but i dont want to bother him with my shit.
"So.......... What do ya wanna talk about?" He asked.
"I dunno, look im sorry Phil, but i think i have to go, I'll try and talk to you later okay?"
"Yeah sure, bye Dan"
"Bye Phil"
He hung up. I sighed. Not from exhaustion or sadness, but love. I like Phil. No. I love Phil. He's so kind, caring, loving, friendly, happy, beautiful, sexy, cute, perfect and over all amazing. I heard banging coming up the stairs which what I assumed was my mum tumbling up the stairs drunk. She was banging on my door.
"Daniel, open the bloody door"
I got up, opened the door but stepped back quickly so she didnt fall on me.
"Have you been home all day?"
"Its ten o'clock, I couldn't have gone anywhere"
"Dont you fucking speak to me like that" she grabbed my arm and pulled me into my bathroom locking the door behind her. She plugged in my hair straightener, she set it on the highest and while she was waiting for it to heat up she kneed me in the stomach. I fell to the floor not able to get back up as I was winded.
"Where, the fuck were you?" she said in between alcoholic burps.
"I told you mum, I wasnt anywhere, I have been here all day doing school work"
"BULL FUCKING SHIT" she yelled grabbing the hot iron and held it against my upper arm. I was keeping my screams and tears in so that she would just hurry up and leave me alone. She kept yelling things that I couldn't understand whilst burning me with the straightener. She finally stopped when she threw up in the basin next to me.
"You think about what you've done" she unlocked the door wobbling out and into her room next door. A single tear left my eye, still trying not to cry even though she was gone. I thought to myself; there is only one way I can control the pain, its to do it myself. I reached over to the cabinet next to the mirror, I opened the doors to see my old box of razors from two years ago. I have been clean for two years and that was a really long time since I could control my own pain. Self harming and sex were the only things I could find as a last resort for my so called 'depression'. That's why im known all over school as the 'Fuckboy' because I have control over that, I get pleasure and to get my head away from my shit life. But since I dont have anyone to fuck right now and the razor is now in my hand, I place the silver blade against my tanned wrist, I pressed down and began to swipes across, leaving behind a long trail of blood each time. I finally stopped when I came back to reality. Whenever I cut myself or have sex, its like I go into some other world where is nothing, it is literally just pitch black, but I dont feel anything there. I got up breathing heavily as I was just kneed in the stomach. I went over to my bed and fell asleep.

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Monday
I was walking to school when I heard a familiar voice.
"Daaan!"
It was Phil. I turned around to see him running towards me. As he got closer and closer his face expression changed from being happy to concerned. I wasnt wearing a jumper because it was really hot as we are coming into summer.
"Dan, what happened to you?" He asked in a soothing voice looking at my burns and cuts.
"Um, I fell over" I could tell he didnt believe me but he didnt say anything else. He could tell that whatever it was, that i didnt want to talk about it and he respected that. God i love Phil.
We were now at school and the bell rang.
"Hey, we have English first he said cheerfully"
"Oh yeah" I replied. I was about to walk off Tom class with him when I felt a hand pulling me back.
"So, did you do it yet?"
It was Chris. I really hated him right now, I just felt like punching him but I couldn't do that cause that's not who I am.
"No, just leave me alone, I can do this by myself"
He let me go and I caught up with Phil, he didnt even notice that I was gone, he was too absorbed in his phone. We were walking to the back of the room and Phil fell over a chair. I laughed whiled helping him up off the group, he was laughing too. See, this is what I love about Phil, he can take a negative situation and make it positive, I just wish I could do that.

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I was heading towards the library and heard Phil calling my name, I turned around and he looked so cute I just wanted to hug him, I almost did when he came closer but I was stopped by felix.
"Hey biarch" felix said blocking me from Phil.
"Um, hi" I replied.
"Why the fuck were you gonna talk to him, aren't you just gonna fuck him and get money? I mean what's taking so long, you dont have to flirt with him first" he whispered so that Phil couldn't hear.
"Actually felix, me and Phil were gonna go to the library and study because I want good grades unlike you" i stepped around felix, grabbed phils arm and went to the library, leaving felix there dumbfounded. Once we were seated in the library Phil just liked at me and said;
"Why did you leave one of your friends? We dont have to study, its due in two months"
Why did I leave felix, was it because I just wanted to hang out with Phil's or did I want to work on the assignment?
"I dont exactly like felix, he's not that nice of a person and to be honest you make me feel happy" i looked down as i could feel my face get hot.
"I do? That makes me happy to hear you say that Dan" i looked up to see phils hand place on top of mine, he was smiling at me. I wasnt a happy smile, but it was loving. Like he really does truly care about me smile.
"So......... What do you want to talk about?" I asked timidly
"Well, i heard that there is a new Pokemon region coming out. Its called alola and raichu has a longer tail that he surfs on!"
"Really? That sounds pretty cool"
"Yeah, I cant wait till it  ones out"
We just continued to chat about random things, mainly video games and what not until the bell rang and we had to go to class again.
"I'll talk to you after school?" Phil asked.
"Yeah, defiantly"
He waved at each other and went to our classes.

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I was sitting on my bed playing silent hill on the PlayStation when I heard the Jurassic park theme coming from my phone. I knew it was Phil because I changed his ringtone so that I knew who it was.
"Hey Phil!"
"Hey, are you doing anything this weekend?"
"No why?"
"I was wondering if you wanted to go out somewhere, I mean as friends, like for lunch or something, or the movies" I could hear him trying to fix it up by not making it sound gay.
"Haha, um, I will have to check with my mum first"
"Oh yeah sure" I heard his voice drop, as if he k we what was actually going on and that he knew that my mum was like what she is, but he couldn't know that.
"When does your mum get home?" He asked, still sounded a little sadder than before.
"Um, im not sure that usually depends on....................Work"
I couldn't tell him now, what would he say, I dont even want to think about that right now.
"Oh" his tone dropped again.
"Hey, um, she's actually gonna be away on Wednesday night and Thursday night!" I said cheerfully.
"Oh, okay. Do you know why?" He perked up a bit.
"She's going to see my uncle in Manchester but she didnt want me to go"
"Do you want to come over on wednesday after school?" I continued.
"Oh yeah sure, that would be great" I loved hearing him so happy, was that because of me? I made him happy?
"Its settled then"
"Sure is"