Reciprocal Feelings

Prologue

So one day everything changed. It was every students' nightmare. The exams' season.

Well not necessarily a nightmare but it was so for her as she was so distracted lately and exams did not mean much to her for she knew that if she did more efforts than she could she might end up sleeping late. She loved sleeping. She would do anything but always made sure that she slept sufficiently. Whenever she tried to revise beyond her strength she used to have some kind of attacks which she thought was normal. The worst ? No one knew about it.

Well reserved, shy, determined, intelligent, courageous all these dwelled in her. Afterall she wasn't strong as she seemed to appear on the outside to the others. Thoughts of dying crossed her mind many times. She was afraid but happy at the same time as she wanted to die.

What was bizarre was that when she learnt that really she had developed some kind of disease which might cause her death. From the symptoms she got, she researched a lot and learnt from the internet. She sobbed all the night.

She contacted him but he wasn't available most likely as he was a hardworking student revising. They didn't talk for many days. She cried endlessly. She just hope she would not die soon for all she knew that she wanted to die by herself and not by any health problem where she would have to bear pain and die day by day. She missed him and wondered if he too missed her. She couldn't concentrate in her studies thinking of him. But oh,  she didn't know she was just a distraction for him. The priority after his studies and probably she was his last priority or maybe she wasn't even one of these.

That thought made her sad. She opened her books and copybooks all scattered on her bed. She tried to forget everything for a while but who was she kidding ? She couldn't. She checked her phone again and again. No messages since a week from him. She was sad. Just very sad. There was one more week of exams to go and then she would get to talk to him as before.

Her heart skipped a beat when the thought of him losing feeling for her came in her mind. She cried and fell asleep with all the books and copybooks surrounding her. She wasted a day again reminding him while he was working hard. She was way too much attached to him. She didn't care to have her food and slept dreaming of him and the next morning she hated herself for having wasting days like that.

[IT HAD NOT BEEN WELL ARRANGED YET:) I PROMISE TO DO SO ASAP ALSO IT'S JUST A PART OF IT. MORE TO COME xoxox]