Thank You, Even If It Hurts

Brianna

"Let me stay with him. All you did was to hurt him, you're so selfish Rian." Then that hits me. She's right, all I did was to hurt him all over. He suffers from everything because of me. It was all my fault.

"I didn't ask him to stay beside me so it wasn't my fault." I said then turn my back.

"Then leave." Leave? Yes I should leave, of course. It was the right thing to do. But I can't.

"Let him free Rian. Let him be happy without you. Let him be treated well. Let him meet someone who can take good care of him. Let him find someone who can love him. Let him find someone.."

"Let him find someone, which is you." I faced her, she was shocked I know.

"You love him, right? And you wanted to take care of him like you always did before I get into your lives. Right?"

"N-no. It's not like that." I force a smile onto my face. I knew everything--- I mean I can feel it.

"You'll take good care of him right? And.."

"And you'll never leave him?" I held into my necklace as I said those words.

"Hey, I have something for you." He suddenly went behind me, move my hair aside and put a necklace on my neck.

"What's this? I mean, for what? It's not my birthday nor our anniversary though." Confused I am, but the necklace was so nice that I kept on touching it.

"Nothing. Just promise me one thing." He smiled.

"Don't remove that necklace because you'll have it as a sign of your love for me and a promise that you won't leave me."

I was about to laugh and tell him I won't when he added.

"If you remove it, that means you don't love me anymore okay? And uhm, I'm also wearing the same thing." He showed me the necklace that was already placed on his neck.

"I won't leave him. Never." And that puts me at ease.

"Well then, be happy." I turn my back and walked away. I left him, but I still love him.

I run through the corridors and went directly to my room, after changing my clothes the other side of the room caught my eye.

"I want you to keep every single picture of us." I glared at him. "You mean all of our picture?" I asked.

"Yep. All of it, I'm going to do the same thing so you won't nag at me." Then he pinched my cheeks.

"Okay fine, you're unstoppable anyways."

And so there is it, our pictures together. I decided to paste it at one side of the room and I also had photo albums at the table placed in there.

Our memories..

I can't help but to cry as I reminisce every moments I saw on the picture.

I wish I was able to stay longer and create more memories with you, Jian.

Jian

It was almost 7 months since our relationship started to change. I don't know the reason behind her sudden change towards me. One thing I'm sure of, it hurts me so bad.