I only need to look into Erin's everlasting eyes and I know how she's feeling. When she happy her eyes are greener and fuller like someone poured the sunshine into them, they are warm and welcoming, when she's embarrassed they turn to a blue, and when she is sad, I can hardly look at her because that green color I have learned to love fades into brown with green specks. Today was one of those days.
If you asked me a week ago if I was happy I wouldn't have hesitated to say yes, but now I'm not so sure. It's been 3 days since Erin talked to me, it's also been 3 days since her best friend Nora died of cancer at the young age of 14.
I walk to her room and knock on her door for the hundredth time today. No answer, same as it has been. I tried the door handle and to my surprise, it opened. 'She must have forgotten to lock it after using the bathroom' i thought to myself.
As I walk into her semi clean room I sigh, her brown is popping out from under her blanket as she sleeps. I quietly sit next to her body as she sleeps. She wakes up and shoots up so quickly I barely saw her move. Her eyes are wide with fear.
"GET OUT NOW!" she screams at me. I'm not surprised by the sudden outburst of anger. In the past 3 days every time I even try to talk to her she screams at me, so i decide to go and have a bath. I pick up a comfortable purple towel from the laundry basket and shuffle into the bathroom.
Stripping the clothes off my body I jumped into the hot water no longer caring about the pain it caused. My Cheeto sat in the next room, heartbroken. God damn it!, I'm her girlfriend! I should be in there making sure she is okay!
But I'm in the bath now and she doesn't want me in there. I sit there for what seems like ever before I get out and get dressed. I shuffle to the kitchen and make myself a sandwich. It's nearly 7pm and I'm hungry. I grab a bag of peach rings and make my way to Erin's room.
I knock gently on Erin's door. Instead of the scream I've been hearing for the past 3 days, all i hear is a muffled cry. i can tell she is sat aginst the other side of the door. I set her food down on the floor and slide my back down the wood with my knees up to my chest.
"Erin please come out. I'm not mad i promise, i have some peach rings for you." i feel my eyes well up with tears.
I hear her crying get louder, so i resort to the only think i know that could calm her down. I start to sing.
"She's watching the taxi driver, he pulls away
She's been locked up inside her apartment a hundred days
She says, "Yeah, he's still coming, just a little bit late.
He got stuck at the laundromat washing his cape."
She's just watching the clouds roll by and they spell her name
Like Lois Lane
And she smiles, oh the way she smiles
She's talking to angels,
Counting the stars
Making a wish on a passing car
She's dancing with strangers,
Falling apart
Waiting for Superman to pick her up
In his arms, yeah, in his arms, yeah
Waiting for Superman
She's out on the corner trying to catch a glimpse
Nothing's making sense
She's been chasing an answer, a sign lost in the abyss,
This Metropolis
She says, "Yeah, he's still coming, just a little bit late.
He got stuck at the Five and Dime saving the day."
She says, "If life was a movie, then it wouldn't end like this,
Left without a kiss."
Still, she smiles, oh, the way she smiles, yeah
She's talking to angels,
Counting the stars
Making a wish on a passing car
She's dancing with strangers,
She's falling apart
Waiting for Superman to pick her up
In his arms, yeah, in his arms, yeah
She's waiting for Superman...
...to lift her up and take her anywhere
Show her love and flying through the air
Save her now before it's too late tonight
Oh, at the speed of light
And she smiles
She's talking to angels,
Counting the stars
Making a wish on a passing car
She's dancing with strangers,
She's falling apart
Waiting for Superman to pick her up
In his arms, yeah, in his arms, yeah
She's waiting for Superman...
...to lift her up and take her anywhere
Show her love, oh, and flying through the air
Save her now before it's too late tonight
She's waiting for Superman"I finish tears streaming down my face.
I hear movement from inside Erin's room and a door unlocking. I jump up and swing the door open. Then, for the first time in 3 days I'm standing face to face with Erin, the girl i love, and I'm looking into her eyes. I notice that even though tears are rolling freely down her cheek her eyes are back to seeing a more fuller green, a color that i missed so much.
I gasp and wrap my arms around her, engulfing her into a hug. Without hesitation, she does the same, and before we know it, we are both stood there, in each other arms, crying our eyes out.
"I'm so sorry Chelsey," Erin whispered into my ear. "It's okay King, don't worry about it," I whisper back, chuckling at the end. Within five minutes Erin's eyes are back to there original brightness. I hope I don't have to see her like that ever again.
