Love ,Hate

After It All

5 years later

"Kids" I yelled.Tj was 9 Bri was about to be 11 and Harmony was going on 6.They all ran up into my room and sat on the bed.

"Yes mommy" Harmony crawled under me I smiled "what yall wanna do today im bored" I told them "well first off you can feed us, cause I need to eat"Tj said I laughed and hit him with a pillow "I dont feel like cookin" I told him he laughed "Ma how come we dont see Zy no more" he asked and I looked at him.

"Cause thats not daddy's child Tee how many times do I tell you that" Bri told him I was frozen "ma where do babies come from" Harmony looked up at me and I was caught up.

"Hold on, Bri go shower and clean yourself, Tj you do the same, come on H-Money we gone get you ready" I told them.

Harmony got up, and ran out to my bathroom while I walked into her room and laid out her outfit.A pair of black leggings, with her sandals,a white shirt with a jean vest that had the american flag cut out at the top of her vest.

"Mama i got the water ready" Harmony came in and I painted a smile on my face.Me and Christian marrige is on the rocks, he changed a lot.At first it was great until he started coming home late and everything its ridiculous.

We back out here in New York and Travis and I are friends again.After he apologized and everything, I caved in and talked to him.

He tells me how he misses me everyday and all.I tell him a lot of stuff, like we are back to being bestfriends almost.

I bathed Harmony, got her dressed then bathed myself.Im still same ole Ariel, lightskin, and shape only Im thicker.

I slid my black jeans on, my nude red bottom heels, a white crop top that stopped just below my belly button, with my teal cardigan leaving it unbuttoned, some pink lip gloss and some loose curls.

"Dang my momma bad" Bri yelled I laughed and grabbed my phone then stuffed them all into the bentley "prayer protection" I told them as we all bowed our heads.

My phone rung "hello" I answered about to pull off "wassup, whatchu doing today" Travis asked "nothing taking the kids to the park, or skyzone why wassup" I pulled out he was hesitant for a while "I wanted to see if I could get the kids for today" he asked and I rolled my eyes "you can come with us" I said not wanting to take them to him today.

Like I need them emotionally right now "alright see you" he hung up.The more I talk to Travis the more I feel for him more.

We got to the park and they zoomed off.Paparazzi arrived and I just sat back and watched my kids play.Maybe its not a good idea for Travis to come around.

I realized it was to late when he walked up to me "where they at?" he asked I looked at him and he sat down "whats wrong" he asked scooting close.I pulled my sun glasses on and looked at him "nothing" I told him lying he grabbed my hand "ma'am who is this man?" "are you having an affair" the paprazzi asked "no this is my brother now please leave me alone" I answered and they just stayed there.

"I thought my picture perfect life was gone remain" I whispered "but it didnt he changed And I just want to be happy Travis everyone keeps hurting me and walking over my feelings like im dirt, thats not right Travis I wish I shouldve took those pills that day" I told him he lookd at me then caught the tear streaming down my face "dont cry, dont do this please?" He begged and I broke down in front of the paparazzi everybody.

The kids came up and Bri hugged her dad.When Tj seen me he rushed to me along with Harmony "whats wrong with her" Tj asked "come on yall go to the car" they all went and I straightened myself up.

He came and took my hand bringing me to his car.Before I got in he hugged me tight, and rubbed circles in my back with his hand as I cries again.It felt so comfortable to cry around him.Like I was 17 again "Im sorry for hurting you like that, I love you Ariel, I still love you and it was supposed to me walking you down that isle, I apologize for everything" he whispered wiping my face.