Disregarded

mhmm - it's something i say

If you were strained and angered, would you kick and shout, make your voice be heard until our ears fall out, shun me if I'm wrong, but isn't this your fault, being...mmmffff idk - Be quiet, take his hand, stare out the window, let your mind wander, just think, breathe your sorrows out and imagine the future - NOTE TO SELF: DO NOT READ stupid FICS WHEN YOU GOT SHIT TO DO - DO NOT DO IT - "I'll get it done" is a phrase which is too often passed through my mind - 82316 - He is cheating on you - He doesn't love you enough to only want you - Because all he ever wanted was "you" - When is it his time to grow up - Probably never - Because he has lied to you far too many times - But no matter how many times more, you will still run back to him - Just an endless loop - You will never get anywhere in life - Especially locked onto one person - Get a grip -
That's just the part of life where you tend to lose people, regardless of how it happens - You shall be the ruler of this place. To me you are the sun, the moon, and the sky they swim in. You have held all of the stars in your eyes but the constellations are what they see. I have seen the stars far off in the deepness of space known as the ocean that cradles them.You are the one to look up to when I feel sad, and the one I write poems under whether it be in warmth or the shivery coldness. You will always be there and I will stay to cherish this gift you have given me. - While the end of me is drawing nearer I feel myself fall back into the clouds beneath us. You have brought this on yourself you demon, leave me be to die in peace. Your pestering has brought me here now leave me to finish it off. Insanity has flooded my mind thanks to the piercing glare from your bright red eyes. As red as the blood I taste on my lips, metallic and pure, the sweet taste of revenge. With revenge there are consequences for who will vanish and who will bask in the glory of the fallen soul - please help this poor man he's drowning in-sanity, he's left his wife and kids all that's left is his own vanity - surrender to sadness - having a virtual friendship definitely had barriers for what is actually shared and what aspects are shown and I feel the ones that are hidden will be revealed in light to either bask in the warmth or start melting -the cuts on your wrist don't speak like your eyes do, the ones you've cried with, and the ones that are lied to, you try to hold back the fear so no one will see, but come on brother it's just you and me - I am deprived, dehydrated, deconstructed in the mind, don't know where this is going but let's take it for a drive, that's what everyone's supposed to do, just let it slip away, but how could I possibly do that when we've begun to decay - our bodies just the flesh , multiplying organelles, (something about cells) - I can't express myself to be inspiring or cute because I don't like myself - Bathing in my own disgust and blinded by the urge to love - Being an adult:recovery::being smothered in youth:enjoying it - and I need to be acceptable, I'm legal, right? -