Written on paper, My Emotions are down
Written so enthusiastically, and yet I frown
For these I must rid, I can't take anymore
I've uncapped my lid, now you'll know my lore.
My heart inhabited, like an unknown planet
Now it's taken, taken for granted
Used
Abused
Re-used
Now fear is infused
Now I'm confused,
Told myself to come hither
To prevent myself from wither,
Once achieved
I allow myself to grieve,
Now lied to,
I cried twice,
Heart is as cold as ice.
Protective of my mind
Won't let myself come unbind,
For people mustn't know
The freak show,
What lies in the eyes behind.
Not emotionless...Yet
So far only my heart is motionless..Filled with Regret,
Wait a bit
For a while there's no Bullshit!
My mind now welcomes Trust
Must I lust?
Yes.
Oh my, this is the best!
Happiness is now restored
My mind isnt bored!,
Wait a bit..
OH, there's the Bullshit.
Both Mind & Heart
Broken & Won't start,
Emotions reduced to a Minimum
I've entered The Suicidal Continuum.
Pretty much Apathetic
All is lost, I'm pathetic.
I Try & I Try, I just can't seem to care
I Die & I Die, yet I'm still breathing this smog filled air,
This isn't fair
Sorrow is no longer rare.
I look around to see what I've got,
I've slept on stone - then a Cot,
Now I have a bed!
But this odd feeling is stuck in my head,
"I wish I was dead."
10x that's what I said.
The only thing I can think of, is that this feelings stuck
It's annoying, it's obnoxious.
I yell out "FUCK!!"
The want to know, I won't quell this desire
To hell I go - in this life, I'm so tired..
Nah, I won't die
Too late to cry.
Welcome to the Agony Fest!
If only I had let go, and just progressed.
But DAMNIT
I didn't
Now I'm depressed.
My heart has dried
My mind will no longer abide,
Both Decayed
And for NOTHING,
I have paid.
Nothing is due
I have come unglued,
I am empty and hollow
Yet I always feel blue.
Wait! I can be Artificial!
HA!..It's official..
Give me a pistol.
My mind now dry as well
"Apathetic?"
"Yup."
"I can tell."
Oh well, I'm only dry!
I just need that special Lotion
What's it called again?
Oh yeah..
Dependent Emotions.
