Random destiel and sabriel one shots (Boyxboy)

Songfic Human part1 *Trigger warning verbal/ physical abuse*

A/N Hey guys! I worked really hard on this one, trying to get it right. it took me all week! I've never been in an abusive atmosphere before so if something is off, let me know. If i did something right, or you want a part two let me know! If you want this to be made into its own story, let me know! I love comments of any kind, even hate comments because they propel me forward.  Leave a comment or vote! and to my ghost readers, I love you guys too!

*Play song and don't worry, unless you read super fast the lyrics aren't supposed to necessarily line up.*

"God! Sam, you're so stupid! You know that? I treat you so good and all you do is give me stupid flowers! I don't know why I don't just leave you, you piece of shit!" Sarah screamed, in Sam's face after him bringing her home flowers yet again, and him apologizing endlessly for something he didn't even do. He knew it was always his fault and he just wanted her to be happy with him because he loved her so much. Sam felt his heart break, for the millionth time today.

I Can Hold My Breath

I Can Bite My Tongue

I Can Stay awake for days if that's what you want

" Please Sarah, I love you so much. You're so beautiful, and so amazing. Please, if  there's anything I can do, tell me!" Sam pleaded, almost getting on his knees.

I can fake a smile

I can force a laugh 

I can dance and play the part if that's what you ask

Give you all I am

"No you asshole! You can die, that would help! You pathetic piece of shit! You know, no wonder your father never loved you! You're not good enough for anyone! You're so pathetic it hurts!" She screamed, grabbing a nearby vase off of a shelf and throwing it at Sam. Her arms were waving around so fast he didn't even realize what was happening, until the vase hit him. He fell limp, his entire world going black. The 6'4" Tall man was now laying on the ground, bleeding profusely from his forehead. the dark crimson fell from his forehead to the carpet, which he was sure to get yelled at for later. Sarah, assuming he would wake up and be fine wrapped a towel around his head and left him there, running off to go get drunk.

I can do it

I can do it

When Sarah came home and Sam was still unconscious, she knew she had messed up, calling an ambulance. 

"911, whats your emergency?'

"H-Hello? My boyfriend must have gotten hit in the head by a vase that fell off of a shelf and now the bleeding stopped but he's passed out!"

"Okay ma'am, we are sending an ambulance now." 

Sam was then hauled off to the hospital in an ambulance. 

Slowly, Sam opened hi eyes a couple of hours later. He woke up to the kind face of a short,  golden haired and whisky eyed man in a lab coat. Sam would have thought he was beautiful, if he wasn't so worried about Sarah. 

"Oh, hello Sam." Doctor Novak  walked up to him and sat in the chair next to his bed. 

"How are you feeling?" He spoke, pulling a lollipop out of his pocket and sucking on it. 

But i'm only human

and i bleed when i fall down

I'm only human 

and i crash and i break down

"I'm feeling okay, wheres Sarah?" Sam asked,  nervously, hoping Sarah wouldn't be mad at him for having to go to the hospital.

Doctor Novak left the room, and in came a fuming Sarah. Sam hung his head low, feeling embarrassed. about what, he didn't know.

" HOW DARE YOU WORRY ME LIKE THAT? DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I THOUGHT I KILLED YOU?!" Sarah practically yelled, pointing a finger in Sam's face. 

"A minor concussion! Why didn't you dodge it? God, You're such an asshole."

your words in my head

knives in my heart 

you build me up and then i fall apart 

" God! I thought I was going to go to jail for murder! What the hell Sam?!" 

Sam hung his head low, and for the first time in months tears fell from his face. she got closer to Sam, so that her breath was tickling his neck and said 

"Its not like if you died I would be sad. Why don't you just kill yourself so that I don't have to do it, yeah?"  Sam just nodded his head, this not being the first time he had heard her say something like this. 

'cause i'm only human 

I can turn it on 

be a good machine 

I can hold the weight of worlds if that's what you need 

Sarah left the room, just before leaving taking a deep breath and putting on a smile that was so obviously fake. As soon as she left, Sam broke down in tears. 'Shes finally going to leave me' he thought, and at that moment he had realized why his dad left him, but  still loved dean. he realized why Jess left him for another guy. He realized he was nothing. He realized he didn't deserve to cry, or to live. He didn't deserve to do anything. 

Be your everything 

I can do it 

I can do it 

Ill get through it

"Sarah!" He called out, hoping to god she was still by the door.  After she didn't answer, he tried to get up, but as he slowly got up it was still too much for his head and he ended up sitting back down, his head throbbing and spinning. He felt as if his stomach had turned upside down. deciding to lay back down, he heard the door open as he slowly lifted his head to face it. 

But I'm only human 

"How ya feeling, Sammy?" Dean sat in the chair beside the hospital bed.

"She left. I think this time, for good. What am I going to do Dean? She is my  everything..." Sam knew his brother disproved of his relationship, but Dean never truly knew how bad it was.

And i bleed when i fall down

"Sam, did she do this?" He asked, pointing to the bandages on Sams head. For the first time in his life, Sam broke down in front of Dean. 

I'm only human

and i crash and i break down 

"Y-Yes" He sobbed, and as Dean got up to hug him he thought that maybe, just maybe in the back of his mind, he was loved. 

Your words in my head, knives in my heart

you build me up and then i fall apart

'cause I'm only human