Dont Let Me Go

Caden's point of view

"Maddy! Don't leave me... I need you!" I pleaded. "No, Caden! Now leave me alone!" Maddy yelled at me. My heart broke. I am in 5th grade. I am in 5th grade and my heart is broken. I am almost is 6th though. I hope I find someone to get my mind of Maddy.... She just broke up with me and I am crying.. I never cry. Who knew that I would be crying over a girl..

"Hey, Caden." Said Kayleigh. She is really annoying. I. Hate. Her. So. Damn. Much. "What do you want Kayleigh?!" I yelled at her angrily. "just wanted to know what's wrong." She flirted. Won't this girl just leave me alone? I pushed her away. "Leave me alone!" I yelled angrily at her, my face was probably red with anger.

~~~~~~~skipping to first day of middle school~~~~~~~

Today's my first day of middle school... What if nobody likes me? What if I don't find someone else? So many what ifs... I went to homeroom, who I have with Mrs. Day. I was a nervous wreck.. I walked into homeroom and saw everyone talking.. Well, almost everybody.. There was this girl with brown hair and little makeup on sitting at her seat lonely at a table.

"Hi, I'm Caden Landry." I said happily. "Hi.." She said in a small voice. I smiled at her. Her little head finally looked at me.. She was beautiful! her eyes were a dark shade of brown. She had light brown hair. Although she had pimples on her forehead, there wasn't that much. But she would just be as beautiful without them.

I realised she was writing something. She was drawing on a folder. She wrote a poem, it was short and sad, 'am I good enough. Thought not, and I think, Will I ever be? u will never know the real me' she looked up at me and saw me watching, she hid the folder under her binder. "Hey Ashley!" A boy said behind me. "Hi Kris.." She said quietly looking down smiling a little. I got jealous.

"Don't be nervous." He said, sitting beside her and hugging her side. I got really jealous. "Who are you?" The boy asked. "I'm Caden Landry." I said. "I'm Kris Paquette." We shook hands. "I'm Ashley's friend/ex-boyfriend." He said 'ex-boyfriend' quietly. He still likes her.. I mean, who wouldn't? He pulled out her orange folder with the writing in it. He shook his head, "stop saying you aren't good enough. You are." He stated loudly.

If everyone was quiet, space could here. "Hey Ashley!" Another boy said. "Hey Steven.." She said quietly once again. "You look beautiful." Steven said. "Thanks.." She blushed. She shook her head.. She didn't agree. The two boys looked at her. They both shook their heads and got up and moved to another table. Finally we were alone! "So your name is Ashley?" I asked curiously. She nodded. "So your names Caden?" She said a little more quieter than me.

She got up and walked to her locker. She had it all to herself, so do I! Our lockers are right next to each other and I already like this girl a lot. "Hey Ashley?" Someone taunted her. "What, Erin?" She said threw gritted teeth. "Oh so now you can stand up for yourself? Did u get a new boyfriend?" She said in a baby voice. "No.. I've only had one boyfriend in my life." She said looking down. A tear sliding down her face.

I hugged her tightly, she hugged back, I felt all warm inside, butterflies went threw my stomach. She pulled away and looked at me. Her makeup must be waterproof. :p. she would still be beautiful.. "Aw, the slut has a new boyfriend!!" Erin said loudly. Another tear slid down her face. "Why, Erin?" Ashley said quietly.

Erin had a confused look on her face, so did I. "why have you bullied me since kindergarten? Why have you hated me when I was always quiet and I just kept to myself. I know I'm ugly, that doesn't mean you have to say it to me every time you see me. You are horrible, well guess what? So am I, I guess. I hate myself and you make me and me more." She whispered with another tear sliding down her face... What do I do?

"Because your an ugly slut who deserves every thing that comes out of my mouth." Erin smirks. I got mad. I slammed my locker shut. Ashley flinched and almost fell but I caught her. "Erin! Why? She is not ugly. I think she is beautiful. I think you are the ugly one. Don't ever talk to her again or you won't get hurt, I am not afraid to teach you a 'lesson' now stop bullying Ashley. I think your the one who deserves to be bullied." I got all my anger out. I looked at Ashley, she was looking at me astonished. I did what I never thought I would.. I kissed her..

She pulled away with wide eyes. She ran into the class. My eyes were wide. What did I just do? I walked quietly into the classroom, my eyes shot around the classroom. I saw Ashley in her seat writing on the orange folder again. I sat down in the seat across from her, "I'm sorry.." I finally said. She shook her head. "No, I'm sorry.." she said. "Why are you sorry?" I asked. "I got you into a mess feeling a lot of emotions." she said quietly. I shook my head. "I kissed you because I like you." I whispered. She heard me.. "Y-you like m-me?" She stuttered. I nodded and smiled, "that's new.." she said quietly. My smile fell. "Your my first kiss.." she whispered.. "A-and I barely know you.." She added. Now I feel bad.

"Don't feel bad." she smiled. "I actually like you too." she smiled a little. I smiled a big smile, "you do??" I said loudly. She nodded her head. Her smile faded as she looked over. She saw her 'ex boyfriend' Kris looking over at us with a hurt look. Ashley looked down, she probably felt bad. A tear slipped from her eye

She still likes Kris.. My heart shattered into tiny little pieces.

A girl sat next to kris and kissed his cheek, the girl looked like a slut.. She was wearing booty shorts and a REALLY tight shirt.. I looked at Ashley, she looked fazed, like something just hit her in the stomach. She looked away with another tear sliding down her face, I knew she was trying to stay strong.

She ran out of the classroom and went into the boys/ girls bathroom which was right next to our class. I stayed outside the bathroom for a bit and then walked in. Ashley was in the corner of the room with her long sleeved shirt rolled up and a razor pressed to her arm.

She has scars and cuts, bloody cuts, all up her arm. My eyes went wide and so did hers. I grabbed a wet paper towel and started dabbing her cuts, I did that until it was clean and it stopped bleeding. 'why Ashley...?" I finally asked her. "I have been cutting since 3rd grade, it's an addiction... I can't stop.." she face turned pale.

"If you promise to stop, I will be with you forever, I only met you like an hour ago but I..I love you, I think." I said quietly.

"You-you love m-me?" She sniffed. I nodded. Right then she kissed me. I kissed back, butterflies and bombs went off in my stomach. She pulled away and smiled. All her tears were gone. "Lets get back to class, eh?" I asked, smiling. She nodded and smiled. Since today was out first day of middle school, we stayed in homeroom all day.

I held her hand tightly as we walked into the classroom. Everyone was still up and talking. "Ok, kids, take your seats!" the teacher yelled. Me and Ashley sat next to each other still holding each others hand