I'm hopeless.
I don't deserve the luxury that is my family
I'm just making everything worse
I'm going after a boy who can never love me back
I have disappointed my sister
I have disappointed my mother
When my father hears of this, he will also be furious
I want to go disappear
Run away
Leave them to their happy lives
But I can't
They will worry
And this will repeat all over again
The words I say can help no one
'I'm sorry' means nothing
I should just kill myself
But then I would leave behind great sadness
There's nothing I can do that will get them to forgive me for this
They will see me as I was
Lazy
And
Useless
I need to escape
Run to help their lives
I'm no good at anything
All I do is spend their money and betray their love
I'm nothing
I will never be anything but nothing
