''till my heart stops beating .....
"Get your lazy ass up and out my house I never want to see you again you hear me " screamed my mum "fuck you , you fat bitch I wouldn't stay here even if you paid me 1million quid im outta here see you in hell bitch " and with that I slamed my front door and left for good this time if I never see her again it'll be to soon anyway I geuss I'll sleep in my car then.......
i drove to the collage in a pure fit of anger I know what your thinking collage bitch you just got kicked out yer house!! I was 15 minuite early so I grabed my blade that I had hidden in the passenger glove compartment I held it up admiring it the way it glinted in the sunlinghtits beautiful sharp edge which always made me feel instantly better and free of all my problems and pain I pressed the blade to my arm and let my hands take over drawing patterns words and symbols when I was done I placed a bandage and acouple wrist wraps and braclets to hopefuly hide my bandages I hurried to my class as I got to the door I noticed a single boy sitting at my usual table I didn't reconise him so asumed he was new he was kinda hott so no complaints from me "hiya" he just turned around to face me he said nothing so I continued "I'm blaze,and i guess you new here.... so whats your name ?" i said then smile as the teacher walked in "ok class this is' jace daniels' " i saw him wince at the sound of his name being said i wonder is there a dark reason to why he hates his name ? ... does he have a girl friend ? what would his lips feel like upon mi... i stoped dead in my thoughts did i just think that i mean why would i think that i..i dont even know him but for some reason i feel so close to him even if i dont know him ... i know thers a conection . the teacher had got him a pad and pencils and he was sketching a man hanging from a tree and his girlfriend ... no wait wife you can clearly see rings on each of their left hands hanging next to him ... i looked closer and notice both of them have cuts up there arms the blood has dripped and made a heart i was so engrosed in the drawing i barley realised how close i was to him when i looked up hisemerald green eyes peared into my soul from behind his raven black hair he put his hand up to my cheek and smiled i started to tear up ... this cant happen i wont let it happen no ... not again ... never again .. i pulled back and ran out from the class tears streaming down my face i go out to the grounds and sit under the the big old oak tree i herd foot steps coming my way and i currled tighter into a ball scared of who it might be ......
