Over and Over Again [S.G//Z.M]

[13]

WANTED BY KEHLANI
S E L E N A

He makes me feel wanted
Like no one has before
He don't want nothing from me
But to know my love's for sure
I'd hate to be you watching him love me
I'd hate to be you watching him touch me
Now I am blessed to have what I need
Nothing compares, he is all I see

I'm really obsessed with Kehlani's album. Just her music in general. It relates to my problems and the solutions. Like wanted, this song makes me realize Zayn never made me feel wanted. He made me feel used and unimportant in his life. Like he never loved me at all, like I was the actual side chick in the relationship . The girl who was only important behind closed doors. Well not anymore and I'm finally happy that I found someone who puts me before himself.

It's only been a couple of weeks since we first started going out and I don't regret nothing. Me and Justin seem to love hanging out with each other when we're not in class. Literally, we do everything together to the point where the thought of having sex isn't even apart of the conversation. Well as of yet. I am surprised though, we've held off sex or even the sex talk for the first weeks of use 'dating'. I know, it seems kind of weird, but I want to know that Justin isn't in this just for the sex. I just want to know he's in it because he likes me a lot.

I was currently in my dorm, with a caramel macchiato from Starbucks, as I do my homework. Someone knocked on my door. I was confused on who'd that could be since usually all my friends just walk in here like this is there dorm. "Come in!" I yelled but nothing happened. I turn to the door and frowned. Who knocks but doesn't enter?

I sighed but nonetheless got up from my desk and made my way to the door. Once I opened it, I saw nobody. I looked around the hall to see if this was some practical joke, but as I was about to close the door I saw one of those big orange envelopes on the floor. I kneeled down and picked it up. It didn't have a name written on it, so I just brought it inside and closed the door.

I took a seat on my bed and proceeded to open the folder. What I did see inside the folder was shockingly beautiful. It was me. A drawing of me, with colors, that would look beautiful on me instead of the basic color of my hair, eyes, skin and lips. This person, whoever drew me captured a glow I never knew I had. He or she drew me with blue hair that faded into purple which faded into hot pink, giving me a smoky eyeshadow casting over my light brown eyes to make it shine even brighter like diamonds, and a pink and purple lipstick giving it that sugar plum feel. As I caressed my skin. Absolutely beautiful.

This picture was beautiful and I felt honestly grateful someone decided to draw me. I got up from off my bed and started looking around for tape. Once I had found it in my desk draw, I place the tape behind it and hung it up on my wall. I then took out my phone and went on Instagram. I took a picture and posted it.