Because I miss you. </3

When you see me One day

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If you see me one day walking down the street, please talk to me. I might be wearing that yellow dress you bought for my 18th birthday, that pink bag we argued about the color, and still have this long brown hair that you admitted you loved brushing.

When you see me sitting in our favorite spot in Mcwells coffee house, please don’t hesitate to come. I might be holding my phone at that time, reading your old messages over and over again. Don’t worry; I’ll surely just order a slice of cheesecake and a slice of chocolate cake for you. Don’t you miss it?

I damn miss it.

When you see somebody talks to me, never assume he’s my boyfriend. He might be just somebody asking for a direction, or available seats, and I will sure to clarify the front seat has been taken.

You might see me still doing that habit of playing with my fork and cake, I’m sorry, I know how much you hate that habit, I’m just used to it.

When you reach my table, please never ask why I’m sitting there, you know I’m still waiting for you.

We will talk about many things, and suddenly I'll be lost for words to say, please understand, I might want to be careful at what to say. I don’t want to hurt you; I don’t want to disappoint you.

Oh! You might notice my heart necklace! I sure still never take it off; I remembered how angry you was when I went to Kivo’s party not wearing that precious necklace. Well, I’m sure you’ll ask if I still went to parties, then I might tell you I don't. If you’re going to ask about my driving skills, well, I never drive anymore. The last accident that we fought taught me a lesson.

By the way, Kivo tried to hit me, and I flatly said NO. See? I can be very honest and loyal to you.

You might remember Momo, the toy you gave me? Well, from rusty color, he’s now brown. You’ll sure laugh at me when you knew that since that day, I never once washed momo.

Are you going to make me wait? Please, when you see me alone, be alone too. I might not be able to take the sight of seeing you with somebody else. If you love somebody at that time, please keep it a secret; don’t be honest with me; lie to me and just talk to me.

You know I love you, right? And when you look at me that day, I’m sure I still love you.

So please, when you see me one day, don’t hurt me again, don’t just pass me by, and don’t ignore me.

I might not be able to take the pain at that time.

So please… Understand me. All I need is just a little talk.

The when you see me that day, please let me hug you, kiss your cheeks then wipe my tears.

After then, I might be able to move on.

Until then, I’m not letting go of you. Please understand. xo