Secrets. (Josh hutcherson)

Chapter 1- first day

"Get your lazy arse out of bed amber" my father yelled, actually no I'm not going to even refer as him as my father I like legal guardian much better because when I'm 18 in 6 months I'm out of this hell hole. my mother died when I was 12 leaving me with my father who was a good father untill then. after she died he started bringing home people and being drunk and doing drugs. he would beat me a cautionary to show off to his "friend" he would have over that night. I had a brother he's 24 now and left as soon as my mother did. Leaving me with my dad. I know he's alive I can just feel it he is the only one I could have trusted and told everything to. Now he's gone. Today is my first day bak as a senior in high school. I have natural light blond hair that I added brown highlights to be farther away from my father. No one knows the real me and I like it that way. It's the only way it's ever been so that's how it always will be I have too much package for my self to carry how would I rely on Somone else to help no one has. My eyes are bright blue. I am sort of short 5:2 to be exact. Well once I got ready or school in a maroon sweeter with white and Maroon high tops with my hair in a messy bun on the top of my head I wAlked outside to see my silver truck. I won an auction and was givin it my father only let me keep it so he didn't have to drive me anywhere. I have a iPhone 3 from when my mom was alive it was hers and my dad never realized I took it. as I drove into school everyone was crowded around a car trying to back out as a boy stepped out as te car drove through the crowed an back on the road. what the heck? I don't care today was the first day gosh I hate school I have never ever learns anything I taught my self math from the age of 5-8 but I didn't learn how to read until I was nine. When most kids where having nightmares about the monsters under they're bed I was having nightmares about the word comming of the page and circiling me screaming and me having to read to a bunch of smart adults who would call me dumb and stupid just because of that. I have only had one teacher who gets it that's mr. Jay. he never made me read aloud an he would tell everyone not to pick on me. All of the picking stopped about joiner high when we moved to union komtuke after my mom passed. no one knew I couldn't read or that my worst nightmare was the letter b. No one got it I would get talked at and have detention cause I couldn't keep my leg still but no one wold figure this out then

*flashback*

I was in 7th grade. This year would be differnt I would be the pritty smily girl who made everyone laugh and always smiled an if anybody saw me cey or figured it out everything would be ruend may 4. that's the day the year started I would be in advanced classes and make friends and hek Mabee have a sleepover at there house of corse my father would never allow. This year I would keep hidden I would be the person I have seen in movies or heard about in songs the girl who can make everybody laugh it's the only way I could survive. I just have to start today so I left my naturally straight blonde hair and put on a skirt and button up shirt and sandles. I will try to be normal I will try.

*flash back ends*

And ever since then I have kept the reputation as the mace funny girl not popular but funny and smart. Just one more year I have to act and then I'm done but I've hAd so many personalities I have no clue wich one is real and which one is fake.

AUTHORS NOTE

OK SO ALL OF THIS IS TRUE AND ONLY THE PERSON I TRUST WITH ALL MY HEART KNOWS WHO THIS REALLY IS SO IM OK WITH TELLING YALL THIS REALLY HELPS ME OUT SORRY BOUT THE SPELLING THE MOM AND DAD THIN IS FALSE THEY TRY TO HELP ME AND REMIND ME IM SMART BUT THE REST ABOUT TE PERSONALITY I KNOW IM CONSIDERS "FAKE" BUT I JUST DONT KNOW ANYMORE THE ONLY TIME I FEAL LIKE MY SELF IS WITH MY BEST FRIEND KAILYN SO YEAH HOPE YOU LIKED IT:)