Hiseul doesn't know if it's just the humidity inside her unit or her body is really exhausted. She doesn't know if it's just because of her work or something is really wrong inside her throbbing head. She doesn't know if she just misses her boyfriend who hasn't called her yet since their little fight three weeks ago, or her relationship is really going down for real and she just can't accept it. She really has no idea. It's like she absentmindedly erased her own sketch of identity, and now tries to decipher why she had erased it. Upon realizing, she asks herself;
Do I really have a clear identity to begin with?
She just woke up from a heavy sleep right after she went home from work. The duvet is doing its job for her comfort under the cold summer night, but she still can't feel anything.
It's already summer, but the warmth is still nowhere to be found.
She snuggled like a lonely snail inside to sleep again, but her cell phone tempted her not to.
"I'll check new messages, in case," She tries to convince herself.
"Damn, Jungkook. Please don't do this to me." With the tiniest hope inside her drained heart, she shouts it firmly, repeatedly, all over her mind. She is praying for a deity to hear her soft pleads, hoping that it could bring those pitiful whispers to the love of her life.
Contrary to what she has expected, it's only his boyfriend's friend, Namjoon, who texted late afternoon.
namjones
ey hiseul. are you free tonight? i'm thinking if we could record the last track in the mixtape. but if you're busy, it's fine. we can do it some other time.
received 5:15 pm
Hiseul angrily bit his lip out of frustration and delayed expectations, "Stop being a bitch, Hiseul", she chants to herself upon feeling guilty on her own feelings. She feels really disappointed because it was Namjoon who texted, not Jungkook.
me
ayo
sent 8:48 pm
She read Namjoon's message again, and again, until she realized how much of an asshole she really is. She promised to Jungkook's bandmates that she would participate in a song prior to the mixtape that they aim to release.
me
hOLY FUCKE N SH IT
sent 8:48 pm
me
i aM SO sO RRY I JUST WOKE UP AND
sent 8:49 pm
me
i wAS SO TIRED FRO M WORK SO I IMMEDIA TE LY SLEPT AFTER COMING HOME PLE ASE FORGIBE ME
sent 8:49 pm
me
of cOURSE YES I MEAN I AM FREE TO NI GH T IM SO SoRRY : (((
sent 8:49 pm
me
namjune r u still there
YOU ARE READING
reflection
Fanfictionit was when she caught her boyfriend having sex with other girls just because she can't, and one of his friends won't allow her to let it all pass just like that. a namjoon fanfiction. 2016-2018
