poetry from thoughts of a broken girl who might be in love

Chapter 1 - My Light, my whole life

She's all the stars in my night sky
The night sky is beautiful
But she makes it even brighter
The stars are from way out in space
Away from all of this fog
And like space,
She's my sanctuary

Sanctuary - a place one goes to feel safe, when it seems like the rest of the world is against them
Somewhere where you feel free, infinite
Only in this case,
It just so happens
That it's a person
It's the one person on this entire planet
Even including myself
Who I truly feel limitless with
And I trust
Because she always makes me into something else
More than just my insecurities and doubts and barriers
I'm scared to be hurt still
But she's the one person who I live for

I mean truly live for
She makes me feel alive
More than just this vague shadow
Invisible to the rest of those people
But in her eyes
She says I'm her whole world
She has no idea
How much hope that gives me
It's beyond proportions
And way out there -
That's how much of my universe she is

I could write a million words about her
She tangled up my thoughts
Invades every one of them
But my mind has never been so crystal clear
Every moment we have together is intimate
Something I hold close to me
I look back on it whenever I have a second
It brings me light
It makes me feel hope

I feel like I can fly
Soaring high above everything else
It's all insignificant
All I can see is her,
All around me
She gives power to my wings
Shine to their glitter
Purpose to their imperfections
Because they're unique
Just like she is
Unique and beautiful

Sometimes it hurts to think about
But other times
It's truly amazing
The best thing someone like me
Someone so broken
Could ever imagine
Much less actually have

But for now at least
I do have her
And I'll be damned if i ever let her go
Because she's my everything
My life, my whole world

She's bigger than the moon
But I feel as if i belong
By her side
And maybe we could shine together
Someday
For eternity
Always burning, as a reminder
That sometimes things really do end up
Perfect
And you can find sanctuary
Even when you're in one of the darkest places.