the story of jocelyn
pain is just on real . every time i get back up i just fall back down life is to short to throw it away. take pain as a gift in life teaches you your soft and hard spots . pain is something that made me today. december 17 1997, in a city call tucson i was borb in tmc hostiptal . Born with ausburgers and atusim . i couldnt speak tell i was 3 i lived in a trailer on the south side ive been pushed kicked shoved and abused the pain was un discriable . i tosed and turn every night with bruises and scares that left me with fear and hurt. when i hit 5 i moved to the east side in a 1 story house people beat me abuded me and hurt me i was made fun of for being white my dad always said before he went to prison stay proud of who you are , they are no difernt from you stay true to your self and stay strong. my mom always said pain conquers fear so stay strong and fight for your life because life is to short for you to throw away. as time went on my gramma abaned me , my dad and my aunt . my sister used to beat the shit out of me and mentaly abuse me when i was about 10 i moved to rita ranch . ruta ranch wasnt really my thing people were frendly judge mental and stuck up everyone was fake with eachother people stared at me eceryone gatherd me and asked who i was . at that momment i thought ive been running away my wgole life with fear to the point where i didnt know who i was i lost my way in i was lost in the dark woods trapped with angry and hurt and no where to be found . i used to sit aline every day thinking about all the pain i went through and how.many people i brought down with me . i reliezed i had no true friends there was no body i could run to. a year later............
chapter 2
i met a girl named delsa beesley as i got to know her i reliezed she was the only girl i could count on the one i could run to when im scared the one i could tell anything to . but as we got older we moved on she found bettet friends at ricon vista midle school and i.found friebds at desert sky middle school as she dirfted apart i met marissa sativa nick lyricc lydia geoffery ashley abbi abby elizabeth kacey mariana and alexis i became close to them they were family but not as close ad me and delsa in the seventh grade me and delsa started talking again i went to vail acandmy and met new people and made new friends it felt good that everyone enjoyed seeing me . the sun was always shinning birds were chiping it was beautiful. it felt like my life just started a new begining . my eight grade year hit i was exicted to meet new people i made boyfriends like connor zach jared rhys jacob and now my boyfriend and best boyfriend ever nate 1-14-12 till the day i die <3 i ve been hurt by guys soo many times and pushed and played with that my heart cant discribe how u feel i have grown mental attached feeling i cry in some movies i shake when i get close to a guy i have fear of being alone in the dark . i am who i am i am no puppet i am no toy i have a soul and a heart and i will fight for this life till the day i die my life is like fire its been through so much birnibg a durt and water that it wont stop burning till the end . im the flames and your the water were what keep eachother in good hands . as i walk down this lonely road i stiped to think if i was ever loved . how many times ive been abused and what cause.me to go down the lonely path.
