As Long As You Love Me | j.d.b (UNDERGOING REVISION)

Chapter {32}: "I'm here." || "I'll be your lifeline tonight."

His phone rang intensively. Sighing he took a look at his watch, 10:05 pm. Expecting it to be Khalil at this hour, wanting to do something rad, he smirked and slightly opened his other eye and grabbed his phone. When Baby girl Van was visible on the screen, his face dropped completely and he eagerly answered it as he began to sit up in his bed. His eyes fighting to stay open.

"Hey." He said sweetly, his voice slightly groggy.

"Can you please come over? I need you."

That's all she had to say and he was slipping something on and jogging out the door.

He'd be sure to inform his mother when he got there.

"I can't stop thinking about my mother and I know you can't help me unless I tell you how she died and what's wrong, but I can't. I'm not ready."

"Hey, it's okay."

"No, it's not. I need a beer."

Justin's face was deadpan before he swallowed the lump in his throat. "You do not, you've gone so long without one. Just-" Justin began to rub her shoulders and pull her closer. "Please, just don't."
Vanessa shook her head and gulped. She wanted to shrug him off, but at the same time she wanting nothing more than to cuddle into him, to embrace him. She wore the hoodie he had given her about a month or so ago, something she would occasionally find herself wearing without realizing. Justin smiled at that, the fact that she looked perfect in whatever she wore; especially his clothing.

"Is that why you used to drink?" He questioned, lowly and slow. Vanessa took a long shaky breath before nodding.

"Yeah, for the most part. Ryan introduced alcohol to me when he realized I wasn't getting out of my depression. In December she'll be gone for a year now. He said who knew a way to cope with it; he claimed he had something that would take the edge off, make me numb or settle the pain." She stated. Justin furrowed an eyebrow, Ryan Butler was a familiar character to him. They weren't close, but he was aware of who he was.

"Ryan Butler?" He questioned. Vanessa nodded once more.

"Yeah, he was trying to help. I'm sure he had good intentions. In fact, I'm positive he did. He's been my friend since I was in diapers, along with Chaz. My father doesn't approve of Ryan though. Chaz on the other hand, is a different story. It doesn't matter though, eventually we all grow out of diapers and split."

"You know what's sad though, I think it actually helped in that very moment. Now, I feel everything except this time, it's hitting me harder than before."
Justin didn't know what to say, he was glad she was opening up to him, but how was he supposed to react? All he could do was listen. He wasn't aware that's all she needed.

"This is depressing, simply sitting on this sofa. I apologize for waking you up if I did, considering the fact that it's 10:20 now. I just-you're the only person I could call. The only person I can call." Justin planted soft kisses into her hair and began to embrace her more.

"We can sit here for as long as you need and you didn't wake me. I'm glad you could call on me in a time of need."

"You don't have to lie." Vanessa chuckled, taking Justin aback. He moved his head away from her's and looked at her for a moment before a small chuckle emerged from him as well.

"Well, excuse me-"

"You're excuse; come on." Vanessa said suddenly, grabbing Justin's hand and standing.

"For trying to be cute." Justin trailed before being dragged to the second level of the house. Vanessa maneuvered through the long hallways before they came to her room. She opened the door and didn't bother broadcasting what was in her room. Justin hardly had time to analyze what was in her room, besides making a mental note that it was clean and complimented the rest of the house before he found himself sticking a leg through a window and ducking his head.

     She rolled on top of him, straddling him and crashed her lips onto his. She was eager, hungry for his kiss and his touch. Justin was caught off guard, but gave in. Vanessa's sobs slowly faded and they were replaced with hoarse breathing. Justin rolled them over carefully, considering the fact that they were on a rooftop. Laying her gently on her side, he began to deepen the kiss. A soft noise erupted from Van's temple and then suddenly the tears started again. Justin pulled away, licking his lips slowly as he looked at her. She was so vulnerable; she wasn't even in the right state of mine.

"I'm sorry."

"Don't apologize. I'm here for you. I'll always been here for you, I promise. I won't ever let you. I'll be your lifeline tonight, tomorrow, forever; until I can no longer hold on." Vanessa smiled up at him, her swollen lips, parting ways.
   The two sat on Vanessa's rooftop for a long while. They sat up and laid back down, a repeated cycle. Vanessa found herself laying on her back as she stared up at the stars while Justin sat up with his elbows on his knee caps. The fabric of his camo jacket rubbing up against his skin. He found himself whistling, and humming, and then singing as he stared into the city. Vanessa found herself listening as warm winds scratched her face. Her quiet sobs were no longer of sadness, they were now of bliss and peace.

"Look up at the stars for me tonight.
Oh, look at the stars for me tonight-
Just look at the stars and everything will be alright
Just look up at-just look up at the, look up, look at, look at the stars for me tonight."

His voice was on loop, as if this was something he repeated to himself constantly and then a verse of some sort came and left and the loop became everything Vanessa needed to hear.

Authors note:
    I do not own any rights to the gifs within this story nor do I own the lyrics embedded. All rights belong to their rightful owners. Please note that the lyrics from Look At The Stars are simply from the audio I've heard. I apologize if they appear wrong.