just smile || p.jm & j.jk

四

Time skip: 3 days
Jihye pov:

I keep getting closer to jungkook and I have gained feelings for him and I think he feels the same. I have like 2 weeks left and I'm scared. What is it gonna be like when I take my last breath and leave.

Today I am heading out with jungkook. He wants to take me somewhere. He still gave no clue what is wrong with me and I don't plan on telling him. I wore a pair of black shorts and a blue sweater. I did my hair like normal and grabbed my small bag.

I went to the door and jungkook was already there.

"By mom and dad bye jimin Oppa!!" I yelled before shutting the door.

"Hey Jihye. How's is going?!" He smiled with his bunny teeth.

"Pretty good. How are you?" I asked.

"Good." He smiled again.

He ruffled my hair and we walked together. I assumed jungkook knew where we where going so I stayed silent.

Once we got to our destination it was a beautiful picnic set up by the lake. I sat down with him next to me. He pulled out some food and we ate together and talked. He then brought out a boat. I smiled and got in. We rode around the lake. Jungkook looks at me and pulls out a few lanterns and tuns them on.

It all looked like a scene from a. Movie or a kdrama. I smiled. He looked at me and stopped rowing.

"Jihye. I really like you. Would you be my girlfriend?" He smiled.

I looked and him in awe. I need to say yes. My heart says yes.

"I would love to!" I smiled.

He then hugged me. I instantly hugged back. I am so happy. I just don't know what to do when my time comes. I have a feeling I'm gonna break him. But I love him. Agh why is life so cruel. I the felt a tear run down my cheek. I didn't think I would cry over my condition.

He looked at me in concern. I kept wiping my tears and couldn't stop crying.

"What's wrong? Why are you crying?" He said concerned.

I just said I was fine. He didn't believe me though.

"Please Jihye. Tell me what's wrong?" He says making me feel guilty.

"I can't. It will hurt you more than it's hurting me." I said between my tears.

"Please Jihye. What's wrong. I care for you." He smiled making me feel worse.

"What are you gonna do when I'm gone. I'm gonna miss you so much." I mumbled.

He looked at me in shock. "Why would you leave me." He said.

"I'll tell you when the time comes. I said as my last year fell from my eye.

Jungkook leaned over and hugged me tight. He want sure of what just happened. I felt bad for not telling him. But I know if I explain what I have he will be hurt.

Jungkook then brought us to the beach and helped me out of the boat. He smiled at me and I replied.

We then walked home in the moonlight. It was so pretty. I held Jungkook hand and he held mine. I really am happy to say Jungkook is my boyfriend.

He kissed my cheek leaving me blushing. I entered my house. Most lights where off but my brothers room. I went to my room and he was sitting in my chair reading a book.

"I have been waiting. Ready for medications?" He smiled.

"Yeah. Oppa, Jungkook asked to be my boyfriend." I smiled.

Jimin stood up and hugged me. I smiled. I could tell he was happy for me. Inside I was sad. I have to leave soon. My life is ending.

Jimin helped me with my medications after u washed up. He is such a good brother. I don't see how he is still single. He is so good looking and is so kind to everyone. But the only thing our family doesn't have is height. I'm 5'3" and my brother is 5'8".

My brother then kissed my head and left my room. I lay in bed and cried. I can't help it. I cry so much lately. Everyday I get weaker and feel sicker. This disease is ruining my life. I have to soon leave everyone I love and take my last breath.

The only thing I can actually think about is what it's gonna be when I take my last breath and fall into the after life. Will I still be able to watch over my brother. Will I still be there just not talk to anyone.

I feel like I will be more sad when I'm dead. What is Jungkook going to do without me?? Is he gonna be sad? Or will he move on? What will jimin do without me? I am his best friend and he is mine. He watched me grow up.

I can't believe I won't get to see my brother graduate. I won't be able to see him go to college or even get a wife or have kids. He will lose me. I won't graduate. I won't be successful. I will have died young. It will be so sad for everyone. And I feel so bad that I'm stuck with this disease that is killing me rapidly. Why me? Why me of all people? What did I do to deserve this? I'm good and I am nice to everyone?

Hey guys. Sorry for the sad chapter. I just kind thought that I needed Jihye to reflect on what is happening and what it is gonna be like when she is gone. Honestly I think about this stuff a lot. Like, what would it be like to take my last breath? Leave? I don't know. I'm not depressed. I just kinda think too deeply. Anyways. This authors note is getting long. Btw I will reveal what Jihye has as well as what she looks like when this book is over. I will probably have around ten chapters. So yeah. BYE!!

~jimin.