Fantasy - Taekook [Slow Updates]

prologue

I was always in love with his smile. With his lips and his eyes.

I fantasized.

But I never realized it.

"Tae Tae, it's me Jungkook. Can I come in?"

My heart stopped for a second. "S-sure!" I answered as quick as I could.

He came in and my breath was gone. He's leaning at the door staring at me, with no shirt on.

"What are you up to?" I asked him.

"I wanted to see you hyung." He whispered slinkly.

I flinched back on my bed when he came nearby. "Jungkookie, don't do that!"

"But Hyung, I just want to play!" He acted pout.

He crawled on my bed to my direction.

My heart beat goes faster and faster.

He took my head and his hands. "Don't be afraid, Tae Tae!"
He bent forward. I felt his breath against my lips. He froze for a few seconds till he unfortunately kissed me.

My body filled with warmth and my heart felt like it's exploding. I returned the kiss.
I've never thought that I would ever kiss a boy.

He's started pulling up my shirt and touching me.
The warmth in my body was suddenly gone and I felt very uncomfortable.

But this is what I wanted for such a long time...

I pushed him softly away.
"I can't do that!" My voice broke at the end of the sentence.
He looked very confused, what I could really understand.

I'm so mean! Dumb Tae Tae!

A single tear flew across my cheek when I looked directly in his irritated eyes. "I'm sorry." I whispered.

I touched his cheeks and smiled at him.
"It's not your fault... I'm just not ready to do that now."

"It's okay hyung." He said.
I laid down my head on his chest. His heart beat was so calm. He put his arms around me and my body filled with warmth again.

"Can you stay here?" I asked him.

"Always" He answered.

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I felt a hand across my chest when I woke up. Jungkook is still sleeping on the other side of my little bed.

He's looking so cute when he's sleeping.

I softly took his hand off my chest so I could stand up. I went to the kitchen where I saw Namjoon.

"Do you know where's Jungkookie? I haven't seen him coming home yesterday."

"Uuhm... Good morning?!"

"I'm sorry, good morning. I'm just worrying about this boy. He's always doing bad things.
You know he changed"

My chest hurted. It's true. He changed a lot.
Earlier he was the little cute Maknae of BTS but since the Comeback he's... Different.

"He slept at my room tonight."

"Why did he slept at your room?" Namjoon was suprised.

"That doesn't matter. Everything's okay."

I heard steps before Jungkook stepped into the kitchen with disheveled hair and no shirt on.

Namjoon looked disgusted.
"Did yo-.."

"NO!" Jungkook and I cut off his sentence at the same time.

Namjoon looked disappointed like he didn't trust us.

After I had froze for a second I looked in Kookies direction and we suddenly started laughing. We couldn't stop for about a minute and Namjoon started laughing too.

This is one of the moments where I'm happy. But there are moments where I could kill myself and everybody who's around.

I stopped laughing instead. "I gotta go out now." I said emotionless.

I shivered when I opened the door. So I decided to get a scarf beside my jacket too.

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Winter. The time of the year where everyone is friendly and lovely.

I went to the underground station and bought a ticket. I shivered because down here it's colder.

I went to the underground which delivers a second ago. My eyes went down when I saw Hoseok in it.

I didn't want to see someone I know now so I want to the opposite direction but I noticed that he's following me instead.

He touched my shoulder. "Tae Tae!"

But I just let him stand there and walked along.

Don't look back.
Don't look back.
Don't look back.
Don't look b-...
Shit.

He stood there and looked at me disgusted.

I squeezed my eyes together when I moved back and walked along.

I'm such an idiot!

I didn't really know at the moment why I was so unfriendly against him.

I always have bad mood swings and spread bad vibes without any reason. Seems like I'm a very sensitive person.

Standing in the underground, waiting to get to the station where I have to get out I started thinking about why I'm such a weird emotionally person.

I made a decision.

I don't fucking know.

I realized that the wagon stopped moving. Nervously I looked outside the window, I haven't been missing my station.

So I started going out.

I could already smell it.

Home

I thought.

I were at the place, where I've been growing up. I went up. Nothing has changed.
I smiled.
So I started moving out of the city, to a little meadow. I've been here so many times.

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After a few hours I found myself leaning on a wall of an old hall.

It was starting to turn dark outside.
I need to hurry up If I want to catch the train.

I tried to get up but not one hair was moving. So I stopped trying and just sat down.

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I'm not very good at writing english stories...
So excuse me if I made any mistakes!

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-Nohmi