I Was just a Blank Space

Chapter 1

I use to be that girl that filled in that blank space. In my family I was the filler, I never really was the one to stand out in my family. I was the middle child so I wasn't noticed like the others were. That all changed though. Nothing was the same after the incident and I don't think it will ever go back to the way it was. Who am I kidding It never will. I'm not the same and I don't think I want to be the same. This is my life now, my new life. This is my story of how a blank space like me had her whole life changed my one little thing.

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Boarding the plane I feel like this is a good bye but really this is just a hello to another country. Ill be back home one day but right now I think moving is a good start in changing my life, the memories hurt too much and I don't want to be haunted for the rest of my life. Mum feels the exact same day but she has chosen to stay behind. me leaving is good for both of us. I'm going to America, my aunty lives there and she promised that some good American air would be good for me. I'm going to finish my senior year there and once I'm done I'm leaving 1 year will be good for me and mum. Once the year is over I'm going home. No more emotional connections. I'm not going to be the old me, never again.

I am on the plane right now and it sucks. I hate how the plain makes my stomach drop every time we get turbulence, I hate how the food taste like cardboard, I hate how you always got annoying kid kicking your chair and most importantly I hate the feeling you get that something is going to happen and that's exactly what I got right now.

My aunty lives in a small to town name Green lake apparently its a nice place. I really don't care though, back in Australia I was the average teenager nothing special but now things are different. My appearance isn't something that just blends in, its a little more noticeable these days. My hair has changed and my clothes choice has changed. I traded in all my innocent girl clothes for something a little more edgy but something that doesn't scream slut. For the past six and half months I have been doing kick boxing and now my body is toned and shaped the way I want it. If I was going to end up moving I wanted to be different when I start off in a new place. I don't want to be that small innocent little girl I use to be because it got me nowhere. I am different now and I am going to show people what is different about me.

Getting off the plane I could feel the differences America and Australia both had. This place felt lighter but different a little bit of a scary different. Going through the airport process I couldn't think about anything else but that this is a new start, a new me and this time is was going to take advantage of it. I might even enjoy it. Looking around I couldn't see my red haired crazy aunty anywhere. That was until I saw her red nest of hair walking towards me. She wore a giant grin on her face and she looked like she was better than ever. "Hey Aunt Jill my voice seemed happy enough."The moment she was in arms reach she pulled me in for a bone crushing hug." Oh Alex I'm so glad you are here!" finally releasing me she looked me in the eyes. "Me too, the plane ride was uncomfortable and turbulence is the worst" ending my sentence in a laugh made her grin even wider. "Well that's not a problem anymore, now let me look at you". She stepped back so then she could have a good look at me and I took this opportunity to look at her as well. She hasn't changed at all her hair is still a crazy red mess but suits her well and her eyes still shine that bright comforting green I remember. She was dressed in a black pencil skirt and a white blouse that made her hair stand out matched with black strap heels and a green pendant necklace. She must have just got off work. You see she owns her own art gallery and is famous for her own work. This is why mum wanted me with her she is hoping that being in a house hold that isn't working so many hours that there is no time for me at all is good for me and with aunt Jill's flexible work hours its a good environment for me.

"Alex you have changed so much, you don't look like my innocent little niece anymore". She was smiling but I could tell that there was hurt in her eyes. After the incident I didn't want to be the old me so changing was for the better and she knew this. The incident affected her too even though she was thousands of miles away. "I needed a change, do you like it?" I hope its not too much. "Like it? I love it! It suits you and I can see that this is good for you" She was smiling reassuringly at me now. "that's god I was hoping that a change in look will help me and it has... I don't want to be that little girl I use to be". she just nodded and picked up the suit case next to me, I must have dropped it when she hugged me. "come along dear the car is waiting, sooner we can get you settles the sooner we can start talking about your arrangements" she started walking ahead before I could reply.

The air hear was a little cold and I felt freezing with the clothes I had on. I had a white Adidas shirt on with black ripped shorts and black boots... It was spring in Australia when I left meaning it would be autumn here. Shit I didn't pack the right clothes. " Aunt Jill I didn't bring any cold weather clothes." I think my voice even sounded cold.she didn't even bother looking back towards me when she replied " don't worry the twins have already volunteered to take you shopping."

I grinned and kept on walk after her until she came to a stop. What I saw was magical " Aunt Jill I thought you said we will be going in a car." I couldn't take my eyes off of the limo in front of me. "oops didn't I mention that I only ride in style?" I swear for a 37 year old she was just like a kid my age she even winked before she got in! well this will be interesting.