Love Myself

Part 1 - The Beginning

THE only thing I would love to do in my life is to be a Youtuber, but I keep telling myself I'm bad at it. I mean, I have different qualities or other things I would love to do like cook or act or... be a basketballer (like that will ever happen). So now you may be wondering what I'M doing in my life except blabbering about how I'm bad at everything! So here you go, I'm in A levels and I'm a gamer. I love myself.

So yeah. Now you know. Even though I criticize myself a lot I still love myself for who I am. For some of you, you might think what I'm saying means that I'm a complete freak, or that what I'm saying isn't logic and yeah I mean I don't blame you,  I am not a very logical person, and I'm a very weird one too, so I guess what your saying is right, I am a complete freak but you know what, weird people make the world TURN ROUND! That's what my dad used to say. Yes, "used" to say until he cheated on my mom. My dad... He's a retard, an idiot, and a FLIPPING PSYCHO! He cheated on my mom when I was 7 so that was... a long time ago. After I saw him with another woman at home, I told my mom and she divorced straight away. I would have done the same thing too because my dad was a JERK to cheat on my mom because one, that's just. wrong! And two, my mom is the best person ever!!! I'm not kidding. So, yeah... that's my dad.

Anyway, I would normally record in my bedroom, but then I suddenly hear a knock on the front door so I scream "I'LL GET ITTT!" I open it, and my friend Leah appears. She gives me a USB from her hand. I looked at her in a most confused way and in my head my questions were literally "What the flip is happening?" But in real life I say
"Thank.... you? Who's it from?" I ask and then she would just answer
"Just look at it ok?" With no other word she just walks away. So I scream
"BYE! THANKS, AND WELL.... HMMM.... SEE YOU TOMORROW I GUESS!"
I look at the USB and mumble "I hope this won't be a waste of time..."
My mom asks me
"Who was at the door?"
"It was Leah... she gave me a USB but didn't tell me what it was... I'll just check what it is upstairs." Mum looks at me in a concerned way and answers
"Well, if it's something inappropriate tell me, ok Maya?"
"Yeah sure mum, fine..." I answer. Pff, like I, would tell you! I smirk and walk upstairs to my bedroom.

When I'm finally in my room, I insert the USB in my laptop and a video pops up. A guy with an Italian mustache and a pink dotted blouse is drinking coffee when he starts talking.
"OHHH!!! Hello, Maya, how are you?:) You have been selected for Beginners best web games!"  My mouth drops.
"AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I'M FAMOUSSSSSSS!!!! OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDD!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
My door suddenly opens and mom comes rushing in, worried.
"WHAT'S THE MATTER??!" She screams.
"MUM! It's fine, I'm screaming because I'm GOING TO AN AWARDS CEREMONY!!!!!!"
She looks at me like I'm going insane. I think I am at this moment.
"What? What do you mean an awards ceremony?"
"LOOK!" I show her the video, and her mouth drops too! I smile and laugh.
"Mom! Can we go?" I look at her in a begging way and she hesitates a little bit
"Uhhhhhhhhh.... well! Ok! It could be a great experience for us."
"REALLY??! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!"

Two weeks later I and my mom are packing for Tokyo. Yes, you heard it, we're going to TOKYO for the awards ceremony!!!! Which is so cool!!! I'm going to meet loads of people and maybe a cute boy! I'm up for changes. Anyway, it's now 6:00 PM and I'm going to take the plane from Washington to Tokyo. We get on the plane and I'm sitting next to an older boy, at least two years older. I lay out all my things for the night when he asks me
"Where are you going to?"
"Well I'm going to Tokyo, I mean, that's where the plane is going!" I laugh a bit and he turns all red.
"Oh yeah, haha! I'm so stupid..." he says in a very embarrassed way. I smile at him.
"It's fine, don't worry, I'm stupid as well!! Haha!" I feel like we are both the most AWKWARD people on this plane!! We look at each other without really looking and laugh like freaks!! I decide to start a conversation
"What's your name?" I ask.
"Isaac. What about you?" He answers.
"Maya!" I say, turning around with my laptop.
"That's a really pretty name..." he says before taking his own laptop.