The Farm Girl Meets The Alpha

Chapter 15

The next morning I woke up around 10 and I went to the common room only to discover that Jeremy was still at the farm house laying on one of the couches. "Why are you still here? Are you okay?"

"I'm fine, but I was wondering if you wanted to go meet our pack today?"

"Umm...No."

"Why not?"

"I haven't officially said anything, all I said was that I'd give us a chance. I need to know at least a couple things about you before I go and meet your parents let alone your whole freaking pack!"

"We're mates what else do you need to know," he asks looking like a kicked puppy.

"Being mates might be enough for you because you can feel the pull, but I'm human so I can't which means I need some time. I literally just found out that werewolves do actually exist yesterday because we were getting attacked. Not only that but apparently we're mates and you're an Alpha which means I'm a Luna. Can I just get a little time to fully understand this? Please," I ask and leave the room.

I need a bath I decide when I get back in my room so I guess it's a good thing that I always keep some bubble bath in the cabinet. I turn on the water, put the plug in after the water gets warm, and pour in the liquid that makes baths so enjoyable. To keep myself from my thoughts until I can climb in when the water is high enough I start digging to find enough candles to light the room. After a period of time that doesn't seem long enough I'm in the bathtub alone with my thoughts.

I understand that we're mates but he can't just drop this on me and the next day ask me to meet his pack. Am I the only one thinking that that's too much to ask? I can't be the only one right? I really need to talk to Ryan, he always knows what to say to help me get through this kind of stuff. I don't know if I'm ready to give my heart to anyone after what he did. I know that I can't keep letting him control my life especially when he left, a long time ago, but I don't want that to happen again. Being mates doesn't guarantee that he won't hurt me. All I know is that I need to stop thinking.

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I finally got out of the bathtub around two in the afternoon. Yes I know that to most people that is a long time but I could honestly be in there all day, turn into a prune, and not care. I got dressed into some of the extra clothes that I leave in my dresser up here and go downstairs to see that everyone is in the living room. "Did someone get a deer? Was it Justin because if it was I'm gonna scream." At the sound of my voice everyone just turns to the doorway that I'm in with sullen looks. "What's wrong," I ask starting to panic.

"Jeremy left and no one knows where he went or why, he's blocking everyone out of his mindlink including me," Amy pipes up.

"What? Why," I ask.

"He might've mentioned something about how you basically said you didn't want to be mates before he went dark," Mark said quietly looking at me with pleading eyes.

"I never said that! I only said that I didn't want to meet his pack bec..." I say trailing off, dread filling my whole body. "Damn, now I see where he could've thought that. We have to find him! He might be Alpha, but if too many rogues find him... No, no, no! We have to find him now!"

I run upstairs grab my coat then run back down, "Does anyone have any idea where he'd be? Can't you just find him by his scent?"

"We tried that already, he can cover his scent really well when he wants to and apparently he did. Plus we were only here like one day before we went to find you, there's no way he would already have a hideout let alone one that we know about. The only things that I can think of would be somewhere the two of you went where no one else would look. He could have also followed your scent and found a spot where it was really concentrated so it could be one of your favorite spots that he didn't even knew existed," Amy says.

"So like the spot that I've gone to a lot off and on for a really long time," I ask to make sure that's what Amy's saying.

"Yeah, basically."

"How long can a scent linger," I ask curious.

"Well it depends on how long ago you started going there and how much," Mark replies.

"So let's just say I started going to this place almost ten years ago almost two times a week, but haven't been there for like four or five months."

"It would still be there, just enough to make it stand out. But if he was looking for a place to clear his head he could find it."

"I have an idea, I'll take my phone and call you guys if I don't find him."

"You're going back there aren't you," Justin asks.

"I guess, that would be the place that has my scent the most."

"Call me if you need help out there," Justin says making sure I understood.

"I will, promise. Well, here goes nothin'."

I go outside and climb onto my tractor and start it up, then I start driving down the familiar path that if you didn't know where it was you probably wouldn't have noticed it because I haven't been there in almost five months. It takes about ten minutes just to make it to the little old wooden barn that I claimed as my own when I was around five years old. I made my parents paint it a sky blue but the paint has long since eroded away. I know that if Jeremy's here he would have already heard me so there's really no point in wanting to stay quiet. I turn off the tractor and climb down and slowly walk to the building that haunts my nightmares.

I open the creaky door on its rusty hinges to peek in the barn, I swivel my head left and right to make sure he's actually there before I step inside. Which, sure enough, he is. He's sitting in the corner with the least amount of light. I take a deep breath and let it out when my right foot lands on the 'floor' of the barn. I shut the door then start making my way over to where Jeremy rests my heart pounding with every step.

When I finally reach him he looks up at me, then says, "Why are you here? I thought you said that being mates wasn't enough for you?"

I slide down the wall to sit next to him breathing heavily, he looks over at me with a confused expression. "I did say that but that's not how I meant it. I meant that I don't already love you and that kind of stuff, I meant I needed more time to get to know you before I met your pack," I say nearly wheezing.

"What's wrong," Jeremy asks turning to look at me. He must see the desperation in my eyes because he reaches for me and I scramble to get away from him. "What did I do," he asks.

I can feel the panic crashing over me in waves and I can't respond. I nearly rip my phone out of my pocket and with shaking fingers dial the number of the one person that can help. Justin answers immediately and says to put him on speaker phone so I do. "Jeremy I'm assuming that you're there, and if you are you need to say something to me right now."

"Yes, I'm here. What's happening to her," he asks with a slow rising panic in his voice.

"Jeremy you need to stay calm and get far enough away that you can't touch her even by accident. Josephine you need to listen to me, Jeremy's not going to hurt you. Jeremy is not Calvin. He's not going to hurt you, Josephine do you trust me?" Since all I can do is nod Jeremy tells him what I did.

"If you trust me you are going to take deep breaths then you are going to march yourself out of there and never look back. You are going to leave the shit he did to you behind, and never for one second think that any of what he said was true. If you trust me after you do that you need to tell Jeremy what happened that way he will understand so he can help you get through this. Are you better now?"

"Yes," I croak out, "Thank you, see you soon." I say and then hang up the phone. It takes me a few minutes to calm down enough to be able to stand up and it kills me to walk so damn slowly out of that Godforsaken place.