Limerence
(The state of being infatuated with another person)
I get home from school and I immediately miss Tyler.
I miss him so much...
I miss his cute smile.
The way he covers his mouth when he laughs.
The way his eyelashes are so long and pretty.
His beautiful chocolate eyes.
His small frame.
I love him so much.
I plump down on my bed and wrap my blanket around me.
I feel so incredibly cold without Tyler. I don't know if that makes sense or not. But to me it does.
He's the thing that keeps my chest warm...
And right now I felt so cold inside..
It's so cold. Colder than I knew.
I was about to go to sleep..
I was so tired.
Then I heard a knock at the door.
"Who is it?"
I said cocking an eyebrow.
Seriously who's knocking at my
door at this time?
Nobody answers but the door opens gently anyway.
"It's me..your mother."
I sigh as I sit up,
"You here to check on me again mom?"
She takes a seat on my bed. Her presence on it isn't even sensed.
She's so light..
Feels like if I blow air at her she'll fade away.
"I just wanted to talk.."
I grip her skinny pale fragile hand,
"Mom, have you been taking your medication?"
I say trying to sound strict but it comes out more shaky then anything.
"Yes Joshua."
Tears start falling from my eyes as I hear her lie through her teeth.
"Mom don't you lie to me...please."
She shoots me a glare,
"I am Joshua trust me."
At this point my fists are bawled up and I'm suppressing the urge to punch a hole through a wall.
My veins bulge out as my muscles strain.
"Don't you fucking lie to me mom!"
She looks startled then gulps loudly as she takes a seat more back.
"Trust me."
I shoot daggers at her,
"If you were taking your medication you wouldn't look so god damn fucking sick mom! I'm tired of it!"
"Josh...I'm sor-"
"Don't be!"
I cut her off,
"Why should I trust you though?
I couldn't even trust the one person in the world who meant everything to me. He left me. He abandoned me...He didn't care.
The last thing he told me was that he wanted me to go to a concert with him...not even an I love you. To be fair though I didn't know an hour after that he would fucking slit his wrists in his room!"
By now I was on my bed with my knees to my chest. I was rocking back and forth. My pink hair strands loosely covering my face.
My mom came closer pressing a hand to my knee.
"Get out."
I said not knowing how much longer I would last.
"But Jo-"
"Out mom!"
"Ok..."
She said sadly as she rushed out.
As soon as she left I landed a hard punch to my Tv and it flew off its stand. Then I smacked my own knee hard...it's just a habit I guess.
I lay on my bed. Bundled up in my sheets as I hear the howling of the wind through my open windows.
Then I hear a ding from my backpack.
I slide my phone screen and I know it's cheesy but I felt all my stress fade away..my anger disintegrated. As I looked at my screen and smiled widely like a madman who's found his next victim to murder.
Ty 🌺: Hi Jish. I haven't been able to sleep..I miss you too much...way way too much..
I think I may have a problem.
Josh: Me either Ty. I miss you WAY too much as well.
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Careless Bitch (Completed)
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