I Can't Even Tell

Facing The Illness

(This is not in the past anymore)

Well I have just gotten some news about Colby and this is the 48th hour of being in the hospital. I really wish it was different news though. The Doctor came out and was like I have some really good news but that also has a follow up with bad news😊😶😭. Blake was in the kids part of the hospital with his little brother Kaeleb playing. But then I texted him before the doctor gave me the bad news because I was scared.

Hey babe can you come up in the room the Doctor has news about COLBY.

He rushed up the stairs with Kaeleb to be with me, then the Doctor came into the room.

Ms. Bejerkin and Mr. Medalist about little baby Colby, she comes with Good news and BAD news. Which would you like to hear first. Of course I said bad news cause  obviously I wanted to be cheered up after the bad news.
The bad news is precious little Colby has stage 3 leukaemia the following good news is that she can do radiation and Chemotherapy together it will shrink the tumour that started it inside the brain, which means she also has a brain tumour. I did not cry because I know that God is a good person and will make my baby heal. Blake said that he knew it was going to be leukaemia just the way they went when rushing her out of the delivery room, it was obvious that they were going towards the cancer recovery and treatment room. I said that at least it wasn't all the children I had just given birth to.

                      THE NEXT DAY

     Well Riley, Logan and Raegan seem to be nursing very well and digesting really well. But they are being breastfed so while I was nursing Riley earlier I noticed something SHARP in his mouth so I pressed the HELP button on the side of my bed. Dr. Lennings and nurse Victoria came and asked what the problem was, I said there is something really sharp in Riley's mouth so the Doctor looked in his mouth and said that she forgot to mention that 3 days ago when he was born that he was born with a first tooth!  I was shocked Blake said that he wasn't surprised  he was born with 3 teeth  in his mouth when he came into the world. So I thought to myself that he is taking after his daddy already and he is not even out of Hospital yet!!

   Blake just asked me did I want to have some Mary Browns, I said FU*K yes because for the last three days I have been eating hospital food AKA mushed peas, turkey WITHOUT gravy and a bottle of water not even a straw, Like What The Fu*k is wrong with the lunch ladies and gents here. So Blake was like what do you want I said: Large popins with large taters and a side of large gravy and for the drink an XXL Pineapple Crush Soda, And then for later you can get me the exact same thing but with an XL poutine made with French Fries instead of taters.
When Blake came back to the room I was like FU*K yea I get to eat my Mary Browns but while he was walking in through the door the nurse came in and said that I need to come down to the blood work station and get blood drawn. I asked why I had to get blood drawn and she told me that I most likely have Type 1 DIABETES and I was freaking out and like literally yelled and said these words What the Fu*k is wrong with you check my babies before you check me they are more important, so she went ahead took my babies blood and then my blood. Later that day she said it might be months until I get to go home and actually sleep in my own bed because I have type 1 diabetes and my little princess Colby has stage 3 leukaemia😕😕. So I said Blake and the 4 others are not going home until I'm discharged. The nurse agreed with me.

                   Wednesday afternoon

      The nurse just came and said that I'm going to learn how to give my own self a needle for when Blake isn't home or with me. They are actually injecting the in- whatever it's called with my IV. After I started my treatments I felt 39% better it's only that much better because my baby princess is fighting stage 3 leukaemia and I can't do anything to help because I am type 1 diabetic and Blake can't do anything because he isn't the right blood type to donate blood to her, but he can donate liver so she will have a stronger amunesystem and can fight leukaemia easier then with just her small damaged liver.

                         THE DECISION

     Today is the day I get to get an answer to see if it is ok for Blake to give Colby a part of his liver. I really hope that he gets a positive answer on the whole liver thing, because our little trooper is still holding on and it's been already 6 days, in the hospital and I forgot to mention that the quad squad was born on Saturday. *ring ring* Yea hi grandmom ok Sayer and Kally are coming to see there cousins, and yes I have two younger siblings Sayer is 8 and Kally is 9.

LATER THAT DAY

Hi Sayer and Kally I haven't seen you precious little babes in like almost a whole week. * Sayer drops to the floor * I scream HELP SOMEONE HELP and then a nurse rushed in and asked if he has any medical issues, I said he gets bad stomachs all the time but this time he was complaining about side pain!! On the right but at first it started in the low mid abdomen and lurked its way to the right, the nurse suspects it to be a appendicitis!!