Completely Not In Love Anymore

That Guy I'm Obsessing Over

**DISCLAIMER!!!**

Although these are short stories I warn you this does contain mature content!!

We happen to find each other everywhere we go. About a half an hour ago, I posted on Instagram about how I was going to be at Barns&Noble, a couple minutes ago, HE shows up, exactly how I was hoping he would. As we sit at the tables, I turn my head and there he is staring straight ahead. He turns and sees me and I look away just praying that he didn't see me staring, even though I know he did. I just sit there and think about his huge, muscular arms around my thin waist pulling me closer and closer to his luscious lips. He is a lot stronger than he realizes. He takes my shirt off as I kiss his neck. I climb on him and smile as I kiss right behind his ear. He leans back as I lean forward. He pulls his shirt up showing his abs and I melt. I kiss around his muscles and kiss each of his eight abs. Inside I can't believe this is happening, I have butterflies in my stomach. He whispers in my ear, "you're beautiful". I blush because he is so far beyond beautiful, I have no clue on what to call it. I kiss every part of his neck and torso. I rip his pants off of him as he lifts me up and slams me onto the couch under us. He unclips my bra and stares at me for a minute or two just wide-eyed and call me beautiful as he kisses the now bare skin. He slowly slides my underwear off. He kisses and grabs everything on my body. Everything. From head to toe. While I kiss his neck more and kiss in a line down his torso lower and lower. It hurts but feels good after the first time or two. He starts to breathe heavily. I lift myself on top to kiss him to finish as walk to the kitchen to get some water He stares at me and laughs and says

"I am so lucky to have you here with me, and the whole naked thing helps too," And then he laughs. And then I say sarcastically,

"I know right?" But then I come back into focus and realize it will never happen. All the dreams and hopes are crushed in a single moment. Like my heart had been ripped out. I have to see him every day and I have to deal with it and move on, but it hurts to much for me to handle because he is beyond perfect. And I'm me. I don't deserve someone like that, and I can't get someone like that. I don't understand why my heart does this to me. I always tear my heart apart, and as usual, I fall over and over and over again. I am a time-bomb ready to explode any minute.