I need you rn

April 2016

04.11.2016:
I'm too late, I wish that I wasn't a dumb bitch and be where I was rn. But past is past and I guess I just have to be me. Well I am me but idk. I just need somebody to love.

04.18.2016:
I wish I had just one more chance to say goodbye to him. Tell him that I love him and how much I'm going to miss him. I don't even care if he's only a town away, he's farther than I could ever reach. It's been so much harder to do anything without a second of me thinking of him. It's hard to think that I've put up with so much stuff throughout these years and you still don't love me. You still can't talk to me after all this time. Why can't I just be there with you? Why does the world not want me to see you? Don't you remember all the stuff, the memories and the beauty in our life back then? Oblivious to the fact that there is people out there like me who care about you more than anything else in this world but no. It's alright. It's happened to me sooo many times than I don't even know if should laugh or get mad because honestly, I'm tired. I'm drunk and I... idk. I need a break from this.

04.22.2016:
Hello again, do you miss me? I feel like we're the sun and the moon. Love each other but never going to see each other. One person trying to make time fly faster to the day they both meet and finally loving one another but they know that the person they're wasting their time on, doesn't love them anymore. That's why I feel like I'm wasting my time and life on this. Fake love.

04.30.2016:
Still waiting. Still wondering. Still can't stop thinking about you. Still missing you. Still loving you.