Behind Golden Eyes [boyxboy] (On Hold Temporarily)

Chapter 11

"Boyfriend?" Nathan asked glancing between Ryder and me curiously.

Ryder turned his smug face towards me, wanting me to explain. I glared daggers at him but we both knew if anyone had to explain things it would have to be me, "Yes little brother, Ryder here is my boyfriend. I was going to tell you later but someone decided that it couldn't wait." I growled at Ry.

"Ok" Nat said before sitting down to eat again.

My head turned so fast I probably had whiplash as I stared at Nathan puzzled, "Ok?"

He shrugged, "Yeah. I mean it's a big surprise but you're happy, right? That's all the matters"

I stared at my little brother in disbelief. It didn't bother him? I guess it wouldn't, considering it was a better alternative than me doing drugs. I suppose I was worried for nothing but that didn't get Ryder off the hook. That was the second time he had made me come out without even giving me time. He is unbelievable! I faked a smile at Nat before dragging Ryder's shirtless ass upstairs. I was going to give the bastard a piece of my mind and hopefully it will get him to stop being a jerk, although, I doubted it. I shoved him full force into my room. He fell to the ground chuckling.

"Well that went better than excepted!" He laughed.

"What the hell is wrong with you?! This is the second time you've made me tell people without giving me a chance. Why?" I asked in aggravation.

He got up and finally put on a shirt, much to my displeasure. Focus Jay, you're supposed to be mad at him! He smirked, probably smelling my disappointment. Damn werewolf. "Because you weren't going to tell them."

"Yes I was, if you'd of given me a chance!" I defended.

"No you wouldn't because I know you Jay." he responded calmly.

"Excuse me?! How many times have we been over this? You don't know me Ryder. Last I checked, we only knew a few things about each other!" I snapped.

"Technically, only you know a few things about me but I know more about you than you think."

"How?" I questioned, my curiosity rising above my anger.

"Because we're connected." He answered, "Ever since I saved your life all those years ago, you and I have been connected. Through emotions, through dreams and sometimes, though rarely, through thoughts. It's part of the mate bond. So yes I do know you, probably better than your friends do. All the pain you felt, all the nightmares you had, I've experienced them too. You weren't going to tell them because you were afraid you'd lose the people you care about. I get that, I do, but they obliviously don't care that your gay. They just want you to be happy, which I'm trying do, which you do not make easy."

I clenched my jaw not knowing what say. I was truly caught off guard. I mean, how would you feel if someone said that to you? Said that he was able to get inside your head, said he experienced every emotional turning point in your life and didn't say anything about it until now?! I've had tons of nightmares and he went through that. He felt my fear, my angst, probably my hatred for my mom. I was stuck between being angry at him and myself. He shouldn't have had to go through that. No one should. A sudden flick to my head pulled me out of my thoughts.

"What was that for?" I asked, rubbing the sore spot.

"You're over thinking things again. Besides none of that really affected me. It only bothered me when I thought about the fact that my mate was going through it all. That's what hurt the most. Also the fact I wasn't allowed to see you. Yeah, that became a real problem as I got older."

"What do you mean by that?" I asked having some idea but wanting him to explain it to me.

"Puberty is an dangerous time for any teen, especially if you become a hormonal teenage werewolf who's been away from his mate for a long time. It's very painful and not fun for the people around you. I'm pretty sure I almost ripped my uncle's head off once, or twice, during that time." He cringed at the memory but laughed a bit, trying to lighten the mood.