I followed Alfie into the room when the nurse called us in. Phil followed solemnly behind us. I felt so bad for him. This was his friend, and everything was changing for him. If I was in his position I would probably be acting the same way.
I was surprised at how okay Dan looked when we walked into the room. His left leg was covered in beandages, but other than that he looked okay. He was smiling which lightened my spirits a lot. Regardless of his good state, no one spoke when we walked in the room.
Dan broke the silence by saying, "I'm fine."
I don't know why but after he said this Alfie started to laugh. I then followed. Nothing particularly funny had happened, but it just felt nice to laugh. I was surprised when Dan and Phil joined us. It was such a nice stress reliever.
We all just sat there laughing for a few minutes. It took us a bit for all of us to calm down. But when we did, we were all still smiling. The spirit was lightened considerably.
Alfie and I stayed smiling, but Phil's face transformed into another frown. I wondered why. Dan saw his sad face and spoke again.
"Phil, I'm going to be okay," he said softly.
"It should have been me," Phil murmured before leaving the room. The door clicked behind him.
"Oh Phil," Dan said after he was long gone. This was hard for both of them. Alfie reached out his hand and grabbed mine squeezing it softly. I squeezed back. This was hard for all of us. Dan was okay though, we had to keep reminding ourselves that. Dan was okay.
I turned to kiss Alfie softly before we started actually talking to Dan. The kiss reminded me of our first one. The ones where your heart flutters and it seems like you're the only two people in the world. I loved Alfie and I loved Dan. I loved all of my Youtube friends and all of the awesome opportunities Youtube had given me. I just had a lot of feelings.
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