I think maybe I'm a little crazy
a little caught up in popularity
maybe to turn it around I pay for the green
yeah man that'll make this constant depression run away
love is our weapon and I feel a little less crazy when i'm smoking a blunt
some new music a little something more
will the crank help?
please tell me it will
cause i just used my college money on some meth and coke
baby i'm fine
I've lost a few pounds only cause you can't eat when you're sleeping
I think my depression has gotten worse
I look tired as anything
And love failed me
my boy is looking at naked ladies on the computer screen
So I'll stand at the mirror for hours at a time
Wondering why I can't be those ladies he watches
So I'll sit and I'll cry staring at every bruise and cut on my body
And every little penny sized ammount of fat on my body
And I'll realize this is why he watches them instead of me
So screw me and my blind optimism
Because the thing I loved the most failed me
So I'll sit at the table staring down at the food I never asked for
And he'll be so tired of watching them that he sits beside me
He runs his fingers through my hair
I'll cringe in depise knowing his lies
And then I'll cry as I fall to the ground
The feeling of me being so weak makes him crave me
Just what I thought I always wanted
I'm on the ground and he crawls on top of me
And I'll scream and fight with all my weak might
I'm so weak
I haven't eaten in a while
And then he enters me
That's when everything goes black
And now I'm back bloody and bruised
And I'm ready to smoke anything
I just want to escape reality
He violated my rights
I do have rights!
Just because I'm so skinny and I'm so fragile and I've done not so good things
That doesn't mean I've been stripped of my rights
So kill me my sweet suicide
Because I'm so over living this life
I've been raped of my rights
I'm so done with coke
I'm so done with the green and some shrooms with that
But to die is so great to me
How can I heal from this life that has killed my rights!
I think no one realized that my eating disorder overtook me
I think no one realized that I was raped
I think no one realized that the nicotine doesn't help
Nothing can save me now
Nobody cared before
So why should they now?
So I'll pull the trigger and I'll jump off that bridge
No one can save me now
Nothing can save me now
