I could do easily cry right now. I can't cry though and I'm not sure why. At school it feels easer than at home it's weird... I'm always sad now unless I'm doing something I love but if not I'm a fake happy. I'll be happy that second then fell sad again but I'll continue to smile. My laugh maybe real but not for long. I want to be happy again although I'm not sure how... Most people and things I enjoy aren't real. I've tried telling my mom about it but she always says it's something else. I only have one person that knows how I truly feel but he can't help.
If I did die who would miss me? People say they would but almost all of them would forget about me in less than a year. The only ones that will remember me longer would be my family but I doubt that they'll most likely be happy I'm gone. On to the friends, the girl I call my best friend treats me like shit and I take is everyday saying she just had a bad morning. Although I know that she doesn't like me anymore, if she even did. I get sad and mad when I think about it, I want to scream as tears fall, alas I cannot or people will worry.
No one listens to me if I screamed no one would turn or care. My parents would be happy if I left they wouldn't have to worry about a kid who does nothing. I just take up space that can be used for something better than me. I play the happy kid that loves their family and life but sometimes I'll say something wrong or slip up and it brakes me. I'm broken and scared... I'm sorry
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RandomRandom things that go through my mind and how I feel about something's I guess. I'm not sure how to explain it. It's kinda like a diary if you can call it that.
